I definitely have weeded out the true friends from the fake ones through this whole process. And I have to say, I have amazing and supportive friends.
This particular cast of characters are my blood. We've been friends since childhood and these are life long bonds. These are the people that bury bodies in the desert for you. These are the friends who know every wart and love you anyway.
So, I've had a much easier time explaining and getting support from the people who have become part of my adult life. And these friends aren't unsupportive. It would be the same reaction I would have if this had happened to them. Or my kids. This is "wait, I would totally take a bullet for you or push this guy off a cliff for what he did and now you're back together?? Why?"
And I'm all...um...
I need to be able to articulate it. Not just for them but for me too. I need to understand why and it has to be bigger than "for my family" or "cuz he loves me".
All of this is said with an absolute understanding of "I don't own nothin' to no one" and I get that it's my life, my business.
I think I just need to sort it in my own mind as clearly I was unprepared to answer.