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StartingFreshNow (original poster member #44224) posted at 5:01 PM on Friday, July 25th, 2014
I've found that boredom is one of my biggest reasons for breaking NC. I get bored and want instant attention and AP always provided me with that.
I can't seem to find good ways to fill my boredom. I really do want attention during that time. I will contact a couple other people but they almost always are busy with things like their jobs. Cruising the internet doesn't help and I'm at work so I can't do something like read a book or go for a walk - my mind wanders while I'm working and it's hard to fill it, but an "innocent" email is so easy to do and fills my needs. I do have ADHD that I'm treated for, but I think it makes my periods of "boredom" more frequent than lots of other people.
What do you do when you're bored - especially if you're instinct is to turn to something unhealthy (whether it's A-related or not)?
Me: WW
2 young kids
DDay - Dec 2013 (EA), TT
DDay 2 - Jul 28, 2014 (PA), TT
DDay 3 - end of Aug/beg of Sep 2014
(All the same A)
DrJekyll ( member #43618) posted at 5:10 PM on Friday, July 25th, 2014
Read and post on SI
A wound can be stitched shut, but it decides when it will heal on its own.
ME: WH HER: BS (holesinmybucket)
I do not PM with Women
Hardships often prepare ordinary people for an extraordinary destiny. C.S.Lewis
StartingFreshNow (original poster member #44224) posted at 5:13 PM on Friday, July 25th, 2014
That's what I'm doing so far today! LOL
But really, it's not enough, I still get bored...
[This message edited by StartingFreshNow at 11:13 AM, July 25th (Friday)]
Me: WW
2 young kids
DDay - Dec 2013 (EA), TT
DDay 2 - Jul 28, 2014 (PA), TT
DDay 3 - end of Aug/beg of Sep 2014
(All the same A)
LosferWords ( member #30369) posted at 5:24 PM on Friday, July 25th, 2014
Do you think your BH would be receptive to emails? Maybe you could email him instead?
I come out here a lot, and I have been known to play the occasional word game when I get really bored.
It will take awhile to figure out and form some good, healthy habits. You'll get there.
StartingFreshNow (original poster member #44224) posted at 5:45 PM on Friday, July 25th, 2014
I send my first email to him but he's generally very busy with work so I only get a quick, short response and he has to get back to work. I always try that first though.
That's true - I bet I can find some online word games or things like that where it would still look like I was "working" even though I was just filling the mental boredom :)
Me: WW
2 young kids
DDay - Dec 2013 (EA), TT
DDay 2 - Jul 28, 2014 (PA), TT
DDay 3 - end of Aug/beg of Sep 2014
(All the same A)
tangledknot ( member #43927) posted at 5:58 PM on Friday, July 25th, 2014
I have the same issue. BS and I have been compiling a list of our favorite movies today. That has been a nice distraction. I am hoping that we can watch Dumb and Dumber or something similarly stupid tonight.
I am on here a lot during the work day. I wasted my entire day on this site yesterday.
StartingFreshNow (original poster member #44224) posted at 6:00 PM on Friday, July 25th, 2014
I'm going to start making my list now! LOL
Me: WW
2 young kids
DDay - Dec 2013 (EA), TT
DDay 2 - Jul 28, 2014 (PA), TT
DDay 3 - end of Aug/beg of Sep 2014
(All the same A)
Macsecond ( member #43972) posted at 7:23 PM on Friday, July 25th, 2014
I've been spending a lot of time on SI, especially because when I was bored I used to go to the site my A started on and I don't go there any more.
I've uploaded some of the books frequently recommended here: How to help your spouse heal from an affair, and Not Just Friends and have been reading those.
I've been thinking of journalling. A lot of times my brain just goes round and round with thoughts and I just need to capture them.
When I'm tired of thinking about the A and R and fixing myself and what I can do to help BH and just need a brain break, I'll either surf you-tube, or watch something on netflix, or I'll clean. haha! I'm a terrible housekeeper, but have in the last few weeks given my bedroom and closets a much-needed reorganization.
I run, and I used to knit, so I might pick up that again and finish some unfinished projects that have been put aside now that I have more spare time.
Do you draw or doodle? Anything creative?
Go for a walk? Yoga? Deep breathing?
Me - WW (42)
Him - BH (40)
Married 18 years.
2 amazing daughters (DD10 and DD6)
DDay - July 4, 2014 (I confessed to 5 month OEA)
familyfirst ( member #42651) posted at 8:02 PM on Friday, July 25th, 2014
Really great awareness to recognize your actions and feelings that contributed to the A. I think most of us have a similar problem with boredom, if not before the A, then after. If you were like me, during the A you were functioning at 125% cranking out emails/texts to AP in every spare moment and keeping up with the rest of your life too. After the A surfing FB and MSN during my spare time was just not stimulating enough. I found I just had to stay away from my computer when I had free tim. Get up and go for a walk, go talk to a coworker, just be moving and not by myself and idle. I also threw myself into work. And then I found SI and it helped(s) a lot when I'm at my desk.
It's gotten easier for me in the last couple months (I'm 5.5 months post A) to be more content with calm instead of looking for that buzz.
[This message edited by familyfirst at 2:03 PM, July 25th (Friday)]
tangledknot ( member #43927) posted at 8:16 PM on Friday, July 25th, 2014
Is there a way to directly reply to people? Regarding familyfirst's post about functioning at 125% during the A and then dealing with the lack of stimulation after. Wow! That is me.
When I'm not at work, I am trying to beat it out of myself with exercise. I am so sore and tired that I can barely move.
When my thoughts start to race at work, I wear headphones and crank my music hoping to drown them out.
Boredom is dangerous territory!
StartingFreshNow (original poster member #44224) posted at 8:20 PM on Friday, July 25th, 2014
I'm so glad you guys can relate - familyfirst really nailed it.
It's true - I work in a secluded office but I also have another desk in an office with some co-workers. When I get bored I need to relocate myself to that desk so I'm around people and can have conversations in real life as a distraction.
I like all the ideas you guys have given me as well. Thank you!
Me: WW
2 young kids
DDay - Dec 2013 (EA), TT
DDay 2 - Jul 28, 2014 (PA), TT
DDay 3 - end of Aug/beg of Sep 2014
(All the same A)
Macsecond ( member #43972) posted at 8:25 PM on Friday, July 25th, 2014
I found myself fisolating a lot during the A, so socializingmore , doing more with my kids, and spending more time with BH now too.
Me - WW (42)
Him - BH (40)
Married 18 years.
2 amazing daughters (DD10 and DD6)
DDay - July 4, 2014 (I confessed to 5 month OEA)
SlowUptake ( member #40484) posted at 1:33 AM on Saturday, July 26th, 2014
Is it really boredom?
Because boredom can be easily overcome with any physical or mental activity. (such as actually doing the work your being paid for.
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Or is it missing the 'high' of the affair?
Me:WS,50+
Her:BS,50+ (WantToWakeUp)
Married 33yrs
Dday Dec 2009
"Do not say a little in many words but a great deal in a few." Pythagoras
There are two kinds of people in the world.
Those who can extrapolate from incomplete data.
ThatGuyNoMore ( member #42899) posted at 2:09 AM on Saturday, July 26th, 2014
I'm ADHD too. Boredom can be a bad thing for us.
The come down from the constant stimulation of emails from the AP is like withdrawing from a drug addiction. I haunted my smartphone for weeks, not that I was eager to receive messages from her--indeed I was afraid that something would pop up because then I would have to share it with my BW and everything would start all over again--but I was addicted to the stimulus of receiving the messages. I was actually grateful for spam! (How sick is that?) Eventually I got over that, and now I can go hours without checking my phone in the evenings and on weekends. My family noticed too. That spoke volumes to me.
I now have a lot more time for my BW, my kids, and myself. I'm reading for fun again. I'm exercising regularly. I'm watching more movies. I'm reading a lot on SI, writing in my journal, and engaging with my BW on repairing our M in any way I can. I've made a list of 20 things I can do for my BW that will help her heal, and I do several from that list daily.
The internet is a dangerous place for bored waywards. My descent into the world of A started through boredom on the internet. You know where should not go on the internet, so don't go there.
Make a list of constructive things to do. Keep the list handy whether you're at home, at work, or on travel. Refer to it when you're bored, pick something from it--even if you have to resort to "eeny, meeny, miny, moe"--and follow through on that choice. 10 minutes into whatever you've selected, you'll forget that you were bored in the first place and feel so much better for having don something constructive.
Good luck.
Me and BW both 50
Married 24 years, 4 kids
D-Day 3/5/14
14 years of infidelity including multiple ONS and a 6½ yr LTA
I lied to everyone including myself.
StartingFreshNow (original poster member #44224) posted at 1:43 PM on Monday, July 28th, 2014
Thank you!
I'm going to start making some lists now. If any of you would like to share what's on your list, please do so :)
Me: WW
2 young kids
DDay - Dec 2013 (EA), TT
DDay 2 - Jul 28, 2014 (PA), TT
DDay 3 - end of Aug/beg of Sep 2014
(All the same A)
confetticheck ( new member #38676) posted at 5:58 AM on Saturday, August 2nd, 2014
Well, to be honest with you...I cannot imagine being "bored".
R is so much work that "bored" is something that i cannot comprehend.
Immerse yourself in your BSes pain and see how "bored" you can be.
I just don't get this. Truly.
If you are bored, read a book about infidelity. Read on JFO. Do anything, but above all quit whining about something that is so insignificant in the whole scheme of things.
Basically.....get the message. GET IT. Or get divorced. And quote the cause as......BOREDOM.
Me - WH
Her - BW
Married 20 yrs, 3 kids
DDay - 17 Nov '12 (5 month PA)
Life's tough, it's tougher when your stupid.
fortitudo ( member #43925) posted at 6:04 AM on Saturday, August 2nd, 2014
My momma always said "only boring people get bored" What a completely lame excuse. Jeez.
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