My WH travels a lot as part of his job, and this allowed him to conduct his A. He took OW to many places on his travels that are now off limits to me- hearing the names of them let alone visiting them brings me out in a cold sweat. These are both places I've enjoyed visiting in the past or would have liked to visit. I've always enjoyed browsing for and looking for cheap last minute hotel breaks for us but now I am really struggling with this because of all of the tainted locations. He also wants me to travel with him if possible but the whole job/travel/triggery thing is causing me great anxiety. He always used a certain chain of hotels that trigger me every time I see one, he knows this and would never even think of booking us a room at one of those, but that trigger has 'grown' to the point where just thinking about hotels in general is beginning to freak me out now.
Even places WE visited together or as a family during the A bring back memories of a time I want to forget and now also feel off limits to me. It feels like there is nowhere left for me and that thought alone is enough to trigger a panic attack some days!!!
I really don't know how to deal with this, I feel trapped- literally. Should I grit my teeth and reclaim these places as my own? Will it desensitize me to these triggers if I force myself into them? Or is it too soon?