BS - me 49
Thanks guys, I appreciate all the advise. 6 yrs ago my first instinct was that she was not worthy to stand in the same space as me and I would never her have given here the pleasure of seeing how much pain she had caused me. But now I am so much better so much stronger, maybe I want her to see that she never had the power to destroy me, maybe I want to rub it in her face that even though I left my XWH and gave him the freedom to do whatever he wanted she still could not have him, despite all her whoring, he woke up and saw her for the cheap slut that she was. Maybe I want to rub it in that 6 yrs later I am married and she is still single because eventually every man can see what she really is. Maybe I just want to see the look on her face when she sees me after all these years.
I do feel like I need some sort of closure, I walked away from my marriage, my home, my job, my life and never said a word to her, I wonder if my silence made her think I was not angry or that I understood. Or maybe I should just write all the things I want to tell her in the safety of this forum. There are so many maybe's, and I just feel confused.
@ NA, maybe there is something to the 6 yr mark, it seems to have come out of nowhere, but the truth is I expressed all the anger I had about the A to my XWH so I got it all out of my system with him but I never told this home wrecking whore how I felt. I have overcome so much in the last 6 yrs I hate having this residual still living inside me
XWH - him 48
Married 25 yrs, 2 sons 28/23
2nd Marriage 11/1/13 livng the dream
God has breathed new life into me fanning my fading Embers into a brightly burning Fire.