So I'm two weeks past finding out cyber/soon to be physical A was actually physical and got hit with the double-whammy that all during false R WH had another email account and was still trying to hook up with AP until this April.
Tonight I was talking to my friend who has been my Rock through every part of this. We were talking about the MidLife Crisis, how it's about losing yourself. Ended up in a huge comedy skit on WH looking for himself everywhere. "Have you seen me?!? I've lost myself, oh, maybe there's a minnie me at the bottom of this Pxxxy."
It's sick, I know. But seriously, it felt so good to finally not be hurt/spinning/trying to hold us together. To finally be detached enough that I can laugh and crack a joke at how completely ridiculous the entire situation is.
I'm still hopeful for us, and WH is now actually focused on R instead of covering up everything. So I'm willing to give it time and see if he will do the work and see if he can become a man worthy of me. But I finally feel like I will be fine either way- and the funny lady is BAAAACK! 
BW: 43 (me) WH: 42 (him)
DD-13, DS-11
DDay 1 = 1/13, DDay2 = 7/14 (False R), D 4/15
