I felt the same way. I loved my WH but at the same time I wanted to punish him. If your WH is truly remorseful he will punish himself. Maybe try a separation first so you can have breathing room and can decide what you really want.2 year LTA-double betrayal, D-day 1-26-2009 and many months of TT.
Married 27 years. Together 29.
3 children 24, 21, 14
OW sex addict and romance addict according to MC. WH just your ordinary asshole.