Sorry to all on here, I have been away a long time, hiding I think, as I have never faced the truth !!!!
I will be on here more often now, I will hopefully be on here ever night for as long as it takes, to get the help and support I need. I want my Wife to feel safe and loved again, I know its going to be a long haul, but this is all my fault, as I haven't been completely honest with her/you.
I had an affair and I am so ashamed of this, I ended up getting too close with the person I worked with for two weeks and in the third it progressed to a full affair, I put my hand down her top, I kissed her twice, I was texting her around the clock, I went too see her at the pub she worked at whilst out on my motorbike (which my Wife got me), text all night whilst in a pub (where I met my wife) listened to a band (who played our wedding) all the time still texting the AP, accepted a lift of the AP home but ended up in a carpark, where she offered me to touch her, I never said NO. It then ended up with us having sex in the back of the car. As you will see from all this, I did the running, I did the chasing, for which I am so ashamed off, I have destroyed my wife, through my infidelity.
I was seeking attention through all this and craving more, the touching and sex was through curiosity.
I am not a good typer, I thought I would just fire the above of first and await your responses, then respond.
I need help to help my wife recover and will do anything that is required, I am going to re read 'How to heal your spouse' (I think that's what its called?)
I know I will get some torrent of abuse, but I deserve it, I have been a fool and should never have hid things from my wife
Thanks for reading and keep supporting my wife (olwen)
SL