I'm really struggling lately and I keep coming to this whole thing in my head, how the OW never got to hear what I really wanted to say to her. It can be unbalancing when I'm triggering.
I'm hoping by posting it here, this will stop going around and around in my head. Things haven't felt as stable lately. It might be because A season is around the corner.
I won't be sending this to her. In my darkest moments though so many things are tempting.
OW,
There are so many things I could call you but I won't. I know you feel like you were lied to. Just imagine how I feel. From your pinterest I would say you kinda do. So how does it feel to know that now you did to another woman just what was done to you? You know how you hate the other woman that broke up your marriage, well I feel that for you and more. How could you knowing what it was like, do that to another person, family? My children suffered no less than yours. Remember DD's panic attacks? They only happened at your house. You helped scar innocent children and an innocent woman. You helped destroy an family. I wonder if you feel everything on your pinterest page only applies to the woman that broke your marriage? Everything you wrote there applies to you. Only a messed up brain feels that there is one set of rules for other people and a different set of rules for themselves. CAN WE SAY NARCISSISTIC? Yes I would have to say messed up.
How could you say that you are a better mother than me? You don't know me. I know that you let a man you only knew for 6 weeks move into your home with your children. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU????? Yes I know you dated in JR HIGH SCHOOL and then didn't talk for how long? YOU DIDN'T KNOW HIM, YOU KNEW HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You sexted with a married man and told your self he was telling the truth about his wife and went on to try and demonize me? After the same shit happened to you? DO YOU HAVE A FUCKING BRAIN? I can't believe the lengths you went to, to try and prove me a bad person. You went through my bank account!!!!!!! Then got mad cause I bought books and games for my children and I? NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!!!!!!!!!! Plus you don't know what agreements MY HUSBAND and I had. You don't know all the details. YOU REALLY THOUGHT HE TOLD YOU EVERYTHING????? I THINK YOU JUST WANTED HIS MONEY!!!!!! PLUS CAN PROVE YOU SPENT A GOOD AMOUNT OF IT!!!!! MORE THAN MY BOOKS AND GAMES !!!!!!
Well you lied to him also didn't you? You never told him your last husband had just months ago cheated on you and left for another woman. DID YOU??? You never showed him your pinterest or your bitterness and hate. Is that why you hated me? DID YOU TREAT ME LIKE YOU WANTED TO TREAT THE OTHER WOMAN???? I wasn't the home wrecker, I WAS INNOCENT!!!! NEVER DID A DAMN THING TO YOU AND ONLY EVER HELPED HIM!!!!!!!!!!!! Did you take your anger out on someone who really didn't deserve it????? WHO IS ABUSIVE NOW!!!! The whole thing is a fucking joke, that caused so much pain for a lot of people and loss. CAN YOU RETURN WHAT YOU HAVE TAKEN??????????????? NO YOU CAN'T!! DID YOU THINK OF ANYONE ELSE BUT YOU!!!!!You didn't did you? You didn't think of my kids, you didn't think of me, you didn't think of your own kids and I'm sorry but thats just despicable to me. You didn't think of you either. WHAT GOOD DID YOU REALLY SEE COMING OUT OF THIS?
Were you ever really planning on having threesomes with him? You tell a man that and believe him when he says I LOVE YOU? You believe him when you only have known him 2 weeks? How old are you? 35- 36? I think you might have regressed to JR.HIGH. At least I hope, otherwise thats just sad. Guess what, he left for this better life that he believed he was going to get with tons of sex with different people. You told him that was possible. You told him you were bisexual and a dominatrix, yet never proved or showed it. Unless calling him master was supposed to be kinky, you have it wrong though. Dominatrixes don't call others master. He didn't really like it by the way. I bet you could kinda tell by his performance. Yes I know all about that too, and it was NEVER that bad with me.
By the way he cheated on you too. Even the same day you had sex together. Like I said what you posted on pinterest is true for you too. I do have to thank you for some things though. Thank you for showing him what its like to live with someone who truly is manipulative, not imagined. Thank you for showing him that without love, life sucks. Thank you for showing your true colors, the truth always shines through. Thank you for showing him to appreciate what you got, not want what you don't have. You never compared, it was all an illusion made out of both of your lies. It didn't work for the rest of us in reality.Your fairytale is over, I wonder if you realized that you were the evil queen all along? No more moons or wolfs for you. By the way I have never cheated or knowingly helped someone cheat, in my life and never will. So what you have posted on pinterest does not apply to me!!
P.S. I have a lot of pics of you, naked and more....... But you really don't need to worry I will not do anything with them. I mean it too. Not my style so to speak. You should be thanking your higher powers I have morals. You don't have to worry in that dept. I won't post you on homewrecker.com(tempting though) or do anything that will make your life harder. I think you will do that all on your own. Don't need my help, now do we? FIX YOUR SHIT!!!!!