I spent some time with ex today (we're sending our daughter off on a big trip) and for the first time in a long time, I looked at him. I usually avoid him. I gave him a good long stare...and damn if he isn't still one of the most handsome men I have ever met .
Still don't want him, as I know how broken he is. And I'm still feeling fine. In the past, I usually have hard days the day after I spend time with him, but I am hoping that my indifference holds steady.
I will check in tomorrow. I'm far more sad about saying goodbye to my DD for a month, but I'm excited and proud of her, too.
Too bad your painting had a HOle in it....
A HOrrible HOle.
Totally true. You can do better than that arsehole.
The best thing about hitting rock bottom is that everything after that looks fucking fabulous
Status: D 2011
Above all, be the heroine, not the victim. - Nora Ephron
It is our choices...that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.
- J. K. Rowling
I've also worked with complete fuckwits who happen to be very aesthetically attractive - it was confusing having them be brain sewerage AND eye candy at the same time.
Betrayed - all I could think of when I read your post was how much it must suck to have to look at that cheating fucker's face everywhere you go and without warning. Talk about triggers....
Better today Harriet?
I hardly thought about him at all today even though he came by to get our son, and when he texted me, crickets just seemed natural.
I cannot tell you how wonderful this indifference feels. I thought I would never get here. I thought people said it just to encourage me.
I am going to try to not get too cocky, though. I know there may be triggers in the future that will get me down, but I just feel so good about where I am emotionally right now.
Thanks for comments and hugs!
Betrayedpregnant - I think I would have dumped him long before, as well, but, superficial though it is, the darn package was so appealing. I actually told myself several times that he was too good to be true and so I must be the luckiest woman alive. HA!