I spent some time with ex today (we're sending our daughter off on a big trip) and for the first time in a long time, I looked at him. I usually avoid him. I gave him a good long stare...and damn if he isn't still one of the most handsome men I have ever met .
Still don't want him, as I know how broken he is. And I'm still feeling fine. In the past, I usually have hard days the day after I spend time with him, but I am hoping that my indifference holds steady.
I will check in tomorrow. I'm far more sad about saying goodbye to my DD for a month, but I'm excited and proud of her, too.
Too bad your painting had a HOle in it....
A HOrrible HOle.
Totally true. You can do better than that arsehole.
The best thing about hitting rock bottom is that everything after that looks fucking fabulous
Above all, be the heroine, not the victim. - Nora Ephron
It is our choices...that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.
- J. K. Rowling
I've also worked with complete fuckwits who happen to be very aesthetically attractive - it was confusing having them be brain sewerage AND eye candy at the same time.
Betrayed - all I could think of when I read your post was how much it must suck to have to look at that cheating fucker's face everywhere you go and without warning. Talk about triggers....
Better today Harriet?
I hardly thought about him at all today even though he came by to get our son, and when he texted me, crickets just seemed natural.
I cannot tell you how wonderful this indifference feels. I thought I would never get here. I thought people said it just to encourage me.
I am going to try to not get too cocky, though. I know there may be triggers in the future that will get me down, but I just feel so good about where I am emotionally right now.
Thanks for comments and hugs!
Betrayedpregnant - I think I would have dumped him long before, as well, but, superficial though it is, the darn package was so appealing. I actually told myself several times that he was too good to be true and so I must be the luckiest woman alive. HA!