My problem is after DDay #2 (1 week ago) we are struggling greatly. R is on the table, as well as D. Either way we are in process of selling our house because of all this. My problem is I feel myself getting depressed. I know the bipolar plays a part and maybe I can't do anything to prevent it, but at the same time I'm awfully convinced the depression is driven by my situation and NOT the bipolar. Of course someone in my situation would struggle with feeling depressed. Starting to pack up our house yesterday was hard, plus I'm getting more and more behind on sleep which is a real problem for me - it triggers me. However I can't find a way to catch up because even when I sleep, I don't sleep restfully.
My question is, how do you get past the part of you that wants to be depressed? How do you throw that aside so you can focus on the important stuff like trying to help your spouse heal, trying to fix yourself, and trying to build back what you've lost?
Do you just "buck up" and do it? How do you just "buck up"?
I feel like this post reeks of self pity and that's not what I intend it to do, I'm just trying to find a way to push past the depression so I can devote myself to the things I need to.
[This message edited by StartingFreshNow at 10:15 AM, August 5th (Tuesday)]
I am not bipolar but severe depression runs in my family.
I don't sleep restfully either and I don't like to take drugs, but I do take OTC melatonin and I find that helpful for sleeping. You might want to ask your doctor if you can safely take melatonin. It has few side effects.
I also find that exercise is helpful. On the weekends, I get up early as I can and go work out to try to start the day right. During the week I try to do it after work. It seems to reset my brain chemicals somewhat.
Other than that, I try to listen to music and watch comedians I find funny. That helps too.
I think to myself that now is the time to white knuckle it and persevere.
As for sleep aids, I'll have to check with my doctor. I know with all the other meds I'm on she's hesitant to have me take things, but I need the sleep badly so maybe it's time to add something.
Sometimes it's just a matter of getting activated. I hate the concept of "just try harder" because I do believe when it comes to depression and bipolar, there's a lot of it that's because of the brain chemicals and meds are very necessary, you can't just will yourself better, but on the other hand, sometimes just getting activated and doing things that are good for you that you're avoiding can be a big boost.
Sorry, not sure if that all makes sense!
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