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User Topic: What I Would've Missed Out On If I'd Committed Suicide
Pass
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Default  Posted: 8:07 AM, August 7th (Thursday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Here's an article on the Huffington Post on the topic:

http://www.huffingtonpost.co.uk/danny-baker/what-i-wouldve-missed-out_b_5212104.html

It's just a short one, but makes a good point. Here's my favourite quote from it:

I have so many things to look forward to, and you do too. I know that depression is an expert at robbing you of your hope, and making you feel as if you're destined to a life of unremitting misery and despair, but depression is a liar. Recovery is possible.

I still have days where I think "I wouldn't be worrying about this now if my suicide attempt had worked", but they don't happen as often as they used to. I have a good life.

Please read this if you have ever considered suicide.


Loyal spouse: Me; Disloyal spouse: The Princess
Two sons: Now 11 and 14
DDay: Nov 15, 2012
Separated: Mar 2, 2013 after 17 year marriage, now divorcing!

The best thing about hitting rock bottom is that everything after that looks fucking fabulous


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yearsofpain25
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Default  Posted: 8:41 AM, August 7th (Thursday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thanks for this Pass. I wrestle with this myself. Especially lately. While I'm grateful that I didn't commit suicide, I have some survivor's guilt over not having committed suicide.

A big part of me is convinced that had I went ahead and killed myself like I had planned, my brother would have seen it and would be here today. What stopped me 2 days from pulling it off was I saw the aftermath of a classmate committing suicide and the impact that it had on her friends and family. So I didn't and picked my bags back up. A big part of me is convinced that if my brother had seen me do it, that he would have had the same conclusion that I did and he would still be here today. I know it's illogical but it a big part of my DNA at this point.

I do remember that once I made the decision to do it, that was the most peaceful time of my life. Nothing mattered anymore and I had let it all go.

depression is a liar

Yes it is. I need to remind myself of that.

yop


"I remind myself of this. I am a survivor. I have taken all this world has dished out and am still here. So there is no reason to be afraid. Whatever happens, I will survive. So now onto living. It is time for me to thrive." - DrJekyll

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norabird
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Default  Posted: 9:16 AM, August 7th (Thursday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

((((Pass))))

((((yop))))


Sit. Feast on your life.

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