Futurefear, you will get through this, I suspect you've been carrying the emotional family load a heck of a lot longer than you even realize. You have done it , you will keep doing it, one day at a time until your new life begins.
Please focus on your needs, be a great mom, and in the end the payoff will be that your children love and RESPECT you!
Wishing you strength to get through this!
4 kids all adults.
Married 22+ years.
I have moved on and life is good!