I think the combo of stress/grief about the death of my bro in law has caught up w me. He want in a dramatic way-lack of proper care in an ambulance in Moscow led to a coma. This was in June. Sister stuck in Russia w him for two weeks, me on call for her at all hours. Finally med evac ed home, testing determined no recovery possible and the unplugging of life support. I was w my sister when he passed on June 27.
I've visited her several times since. I've kept it together, but last weekend I taught two days of a bodywork training, 9-6 sat and sun. It was out of town so I stayed w my sister and commuted to school. It was too much. I haven't recovered my energy since.
I did my thyroid labs, they were a bit under but my doc said to take herbs to nourish my adrenals before upping the thyroid hormone I already take. She thought my fatigue was stress related and I agree.
All. Week I was dragging, waking up tired. tho I kept working. Today I don't have to do anything and I am not inclined to get far from my bed. Reading, napping. Viewing the outlander episode again.
I hope I recover soon. It's been a long time since I felt this awful ' chronic fatigue-y' type feeling. It's only been a week of feeling unusually tired. so I hope to come back soon.
The memorial is next week and I am going to print the program, get the photos blown up, and I want to figure out what to say. I'm a bit afraid that I won't be able to stop crying once the memorial starts. There will be 60-100 people there.