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InnerLight posted 8/9/2014 17:37 PM

I think the combo of stress/grief about the death of my bro in law has caught up w me. He want in a dramatic way-lack of proper care in an ambulance in Moscow led to a coma. This was in June. Sister stuck in Russia w him for two weeks, me on call for her at all hours. Finally med evac ed home, testing determined no recovery possible and the unplugging of life support. I was w my sister when he passed on June 27.

I've visited her several times since. I've kept it together, but last weekend I taught two days of a bodywork training, 9-6 sat and sun. It was out of town so I stayed w my sister and commuted to school. It was too much. I haven't recovered my energy since.

I did my thyroid labs, they were a bit under but my doc said to take herbs to nourish my adrenals before upping the thyroid hormone I already take. She thought my fatigue was stress related and I agree.

All. Week I was dragging, waking up tired. tho I kept working. Today I don't have to do anything and I am not inclined to get far from my bed. Reading, napping. Viewing the outlander episode again.

I hope I recover soon. It's been a long time since I felt this awful ' chronic fatigue-y' type feeling. It's only been a week of feeling unusually tired. so I hope to come back soon.

The memorial is next week and I am going to print the program, get the photos blown up, and I want to figure out what to say. I'm a bit afraid that I won't be able to stop crying once the memorial starts. There will be 60-100 people there.

hexed posted 8/9/2014 18:25 PM

((IL))

i was just thinking about you. You've been everyone else's caretaker. Stop, rest, be your own caretaker. If possible let someone else do for you a little.

you'll be just fine at the memorial. Even if you can't stop crying, you'll be in the right place for that.

it's always nice when you post. go take a nap

persevere posted 8/9/2014 18:47 PM

Agree with hexed completely - rest and take care of you IL. ((InnerLight))

Thinking of you and your sister and sending you strength and support and lots of positive energy. <3

InnerLight posted 8/9/2014 19:16 PM

thanks for the sweet thoughts. I am taking them to heart...and going back to bed!

yewtree posted 8/9/2014 23:19 PM

Hey inner light, sounds like you are getting some much needed rest. I hope you and your sister will be able to breathe once the memorial is done. Take care of yourself!

Sad in AZ posted 8/9/2014 23:23 PM

If you have to cry, then cry. It's normal, natural and cathartic.

As with everything else, you will weather this. You are grounded and present. I'm sending you lots of strength.

FaithFool posted 8/10/2014 00:07 AM

You have every reason to feel wiped out IL. I hope you had a good jammy day.

You obviously needed it.

norabird posted 8/10/2014 01:27 AM

((((IL)))))

InnerLight posted 8/10/2014 12:34 PM

I spent most of yesterday reading and napping. I wake up STILL tired which is frustrating. My get up and go has got up and went.

My sister said she felt like this last week too. My boyfriend is also feeling it. He was going to visit me today, but he taught a painting class last night and is too tired today. Which is fine by me as I wasn't sure I had the energy to make my place and myself presentable.

Another day with my couch and a book.

little turtle posted 8/10/2014 14:23 PM

Glad to hear you're resting and hopefully you'll be feeling better, more energetic this week. Don't worry about crying at the memorial. Everything will be OK! (((IL)))