Well it is Sunday and about a week since I started NC. I'm doing pretty good with it. My H has my lil ones this weekend and I have stayed pretty busy with friends and family. But today has been difficult for me. Can't shut my mind off from him and what he has done and what he is doing. I know that NC is supposed to help me but it really hurts that it doesn't faze him because he has someone. He doesn't give a shit that I am not in his life anymore because he just moved on to the next one. Before whoreface #2 (which he denies because, hey I am stupid and gonna totally believe that BS), he was all about spending time with me and and proving to me that he wants to be the man I deserve. It is so easy for him to just move on and leave me behind again, after months of empty promises. He tells me he is waiting for me, but I know it is all a smokescreen. Not sure why I am having such a hard time letting go, when I really know what he is now. I feel like the loser, as he goes about his merry way. And I am left here to pick up the pieces of my heart and my life. I know it shouldn't matter to me, as he is not building anything solid with anyone, but it is not easy being the one left behind AGAIN!!
[This message edited by Hopeful74 at 5:41 PM, August 10th (Sunday)]