Welcome to the club no one ever planned to join.
You will find tons of great info and folks that really care here. Up to the left you will see the library. Read through it. There is great info.
There are a few things I tell every newbie here and I firmly believe that even if you think you have the full truth you need to be prepared for the worst and assume that truth is not what they say. For that reason you need to be proactive in protecting yourself.
See an attorney. Find our your rights her responsibilities.
Seeby our Dr get a full STD work up. Tell your Dr what going on. If you aren't able to sleep or eat talk to your Dr about pharmaceutical support to help get you through. Malnutrition and sleep deprivation make emotional control very difficult.
You have every right to demand whatever you think is needed to feel safe. You have every right to not trust your partner. You have every
To ask for whatever you need to consider r.
Read, post, know that we have been there.