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Numb2014 posted 8/11/2014 09:28 AM

My dreams of him have started. They are always dreams of us ending, and of both of us being sad, upset, etc. It never fails...every time I sleep, he is there. Whenever I am awake, he is on my mind. I was doing SO WELL too...then backtracked and I have no idea why. Nothing triggered this. The only thing I can think of is that we have been no contact, so with so little verbal/physical contact, my mind is trying to make up for the lack of?

Either way, this freaking sucks. I had so many dreams and plans for us. He just can't keep it in his pants...

HurtingandLost posted 8/11/2014 09:36 AM

Its tough when they take up so much head space. I finally pushed some of her out of my brain a couple of days ago. Its been on again off again since the 4th of July weekend. Time and NC will cure this problem. Hang in there.

Gemini71 posted 8/11/2014 11:38 AM

I view it as progress. It is your heart catching up with your head. Sometimes it's sad, and sometimes it's angry. It sucks but is necessary.

((Numb2014))

Numb2014 posted 8/11/2014 13:10 PM

My dd told me that the only way to make her heart stop hurting is to have her daddy move back home. I have to admit, sometimes I think that is the only solution to my pain too. Then I remember how toxic we were and how we have both grown in to different people. I just want the old him. But he is gone....

betrayedpregnant posted 8/11/2014 18:39 PM

you're probably dreaming about him because you're thinking about him. it sucks, but hey, they're just dreams. not real. your daughter sounds so cute. So honest. I feel bad for her. She does not really comprehend everything yet, and she is not well equipped to handle this type of crisis yet. Take extra good care of her. You're the only decent parent she has.