Every night I have them. Shrink says PTSD last nite was a doozy. I hurt my lower back at gym so I was up
Every few hours. I was so lucky that each time I fell back asleep, I had vivid nitemares- a new one each time.
In my nitemares are everythg that causes me stress or to worry. ( my parents, work,something happening or upsetting my kids, my H w his OW or even people he dated before
We did. Even his boat, which we fought about during A time. A pool, which I always begged to have put in)
I'm exhausted. I wake up like a fought a huge battle during the nite. Then I exist during the day am in bed by 7:30 bc of exhaustion and it happens again
I've tried every sleeping pill. They work in keeping me asleep but I'm hungover and still exhausted next day from vivid nitemares
My H sleeps soundly, hugging his pillow tightly. He kisses me goodbye and heads off to work. He comes home and showers
Then we spend time together few nites a week out for dinner, drinks. He comes home and goes to gym or plays w kids while I relax and read or just exist.
I'm sad and exhausted today. Completely.