Topic: Another new beginning
Member # 30346
| Posted: 11:15 AM, August 22nd (Friday), 2014|
As many of you know, earning my master's degree was part of my NB. It has been a challenging road, but I've maintained a 4.0 at a prestigious school, all while raising 2 kids on my own, moving, dating, volunteering and creating a full life for myself. I'll be graduating in the spring.
I've just accepted an internship with the State Law Library and will be working in conjunction/ support with the Supreme Court for my state.
4 years ago I was a stay at home mom.
I'll be shouting from the rooftops soon, but I think I'm finally beginning to allow myself to feel all that I've accomplished in 3.5 years. Today has been...peaceful and letting it just wash over me. Maybe, for the first time, I'm looking back and thinking..."wow."
I've been emotional today, not really sure why yet. A combination of many emotions. I feel like my little safe world is about to explode open. I am both terrified and ecstatic.
I'm standing at the abyss and looking over and I'm going to fucking LEAP.
Dating took a serious back burner for the last several weeks. My OLD profile has been down for weeks. I've still accepted a few dates (first date tomorrow with someone new) but just "meh". Part of me is fearful that no guy will really ever be safe. They have all, in one way or another, let me down when it comes to a relationship.
At the same time, there are probably some damn cute Southern men where I'll be.
[This message edited by cmego at 11:31 AM, August 22nd (Friday)]
me...BS, 44 years old, 2 small kids
WS, 41, multiple gay affairs
M 15 years, together 17
Posts: 4427 | Registered: Dec 2010 | From: South
Member # 32789
| Posted: 11:23 AM, August 22nd (Friday), 2014|
That is quite an accomplishment.
Part of me is fearful that no guy will really ever be safe. They have all, in one way or another, let me down when it comes to a relationship.
I hear ya, sister. I hear ya.
BS: (Me) 48
Kids: twins DD(10)
D-Day April 18, 2011
Him:out Sept. 11, 2011
He moved an ocean away June 27, 2014.
"They say that absence makes the heart grow fonder but I am growing more and more fond of his absence"
Posts: 1597 | Registered: Jul 2011 | From: Ontario, Canada
Member # 33226
| Posted: 11:59 AM, August 22nd (Friday), 2014|
I feel like my little safe world is about to explode open. I am both terrified and ecstatic.
I'm standing at the abyss and looking over and I'm going to fucking LEAP.
This? Is amazing. And awesome. Congratulations on the internship, cmego. I have no doubt you will rock it.
You can call me NIK
“The most difficult times for many of us are the ones we give ourselves.”
― Pema Chödrön
Posts: 28213 | Registered: Aug 2011
Member # 14003
| Posted: 12:01 PM, August 22nd (Friday), 2014|
Cmego, you are amazing girl. Congratulations!!!
A relationship without trust is like a car without gas. You can stay in it all you want, but it won't go anywhere.
Posts: 14012 | Registered: Mar 2007 | From: Houston
Member # 3903
| Posted: 12:35 PM, August 22nd (Friday), 2014|
It might be scary but so many wonderful doors are opening for you! You have reinvented your life. That is a major feat.
There is a wonderful life on the other side of hell.
Posts: 1793 | Registered: Mar 2004
Member # 42092
| Posted: 12:37 PM, August 22nd (Friday), 2014|
Wow! Majorly impressive. Go you!
Sit. Feast on your life.
Posts: 4280 | Registered: Jan 2014 | From: NYC
Member # 38928
| Posted: 1:00 PM, August 22nd (Friday), 2014|
Congrats! Those accomplishments feel great, don't they?
BS - Me
XPOS - too many OW/OCs over 20+yrs
Kids - DDs 23,18 -DS20 Deceased
M Dissolved 2013
This above all: to thine own self be true, and it must follow, as the night the day, thou canst not then be false to any man ~ Shakespeare, Hamlet
Posts: 1375 | Registered: Apr 2013 | From: Rising out of Hell's ashes!
Member # 32258
| Posted: 1:24 PM, August 22nd (Friday), 2014|
I feel like my little safe world is about to explode open.
It's time to come out of the cocoon and spread your wings. Enjoy it!
BH = Me
The first true sense of calm I felt in YEARS was when I filed for D...
Divorced 9/2/14 and loving life!
Posts: 1990 | Registered: May 2011 | From: VA
Member # 39850
| Posted: 1:43 PM, August 22nd (Friday), 2014|
Dday: April 2013
Relationship ended: January 2014
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Member # 41033
| Posted: 2:01 PM, August 22nd (Friday), 2014|
Posts: 441 | Registered: Oct 2013 | From: Illinois
Member # 30341
| Posted: 2:08 PM, August 22nd (Friday), 2014|
DDay 11/17/2010 BW:53
Posts: 3269 | Registered: Dec 2010 | From: Iowa
Member # 19946
| Posted: 3:26 PM, August 22nd (Friday), 2014|
That's terrific Cmego!!!!
I hope you celebrate in a fun way. Good luck with your new job.
BS, now age 54, d-day 6-2-08, divorced after 17 years M and 20 together. In some ways I have not 'gotten over it'. But I am resilient and have created a good life where I am mostly happy.
Posts: 6076 | Registered: Jun 2008 | From: Rural California
Member # 43418
| Posted: 5:52 PM, August 22nd (Friday), 2014|
A very awesome new beginning story, cmego.
Well done. Hard won, but well-earned and richly deserved.
Her: Almost XW
Almost done with D
At this stage, I'm pretty much bulletproof.
Posts: 622 | Registered: May 2014 | From: USA
Member # 32810
| Posted: 8:02 PM, August 22nd (Friday), 2014|
How cool!!! I'm excited for you.
"You yourself deserve your love and affection as much as anybody in the universe." -Buddha
"Let's face it, life is a crap shoot." -Sad in AZ
Posts: 14044 | Registered: Jul 2011
Member # 20150
| Posted: 8:03 PM, August 22nd (Friday), 2014|
You're paving the way for the rest of us.
I hope to be posting something similar in a couple of years when I finally finish the undergrad, kiss my old job goodbye and get into grad school with the co-op option.
And start collecting pension...
DDay: June 15, 2008
Mistakenly married Mr. Superfreak
20 years of OWs, WTF?
Divorced Dec 26, 2011
"Life is a shipwreck, but we must not forget
to sing in the lifeboats". -- Voltaire
Posts: 18098 | Registered: Jul 2008 | From: Canada
Member # 22870
| Posted: 8:24 PM, August 22nd (Friday), 2014|
Congrats! You are totally kicking it.
You can stuff your sorries in a sack, mister. -George Costanza
There is a special place in hell for women who don't help other women. - Madeleine Albright
Posts: 7980 | Registered: Feb 2009 | From: Western PA
Member # 28622
| Posted: 10:29 PM, August 22nd (Friday), 2014|
You are amazing.
I am so glad I get to see it.
Me: 44, independent, happy, despite co-parenting with a lower muppet
FT "Stretch" (and Skew!) ;)
DS 13 DS 10
Posts: 6050 | Registered: May 2010 | From: a better place
Member # 33129
| Posted: 9:52 AM, August 23rd (Saturday), 2014|
Rock on cmego!! You got this!
divorced the Dooosh
even if you find your voice,
sometimes it does not matter anymore,
when you speak to a man who is deaf by choice.
Posts: 3633 | Registered: Aug 2011 | From: Happyville
Member # 33699
| Posted: 10:26 AM, August 23rd (Saturday), 2014|
Congratulations!!! Yes it's scary but it's also exciting. Yay for you!!
"Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indominable will" - Mahatma Gandi
"Courage is being scared to death and saddling up anyway." - Aubrie
Posts: 3658 | Registered: Oct 2011 | From: Georgia
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Member # 26358
| Posted: 1:02 AM, August 24th (Sunday), 2014|
Congratulations. And be careful about the South. They like SEC football out there.
When someone tells you who she is, listen; when someone shows you who she is, listen carefully.
Posts: 1921 | Registered: Nov 2009 | From: Midwest
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