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User Topic: Does it go away?
♀ 44076
Member # 44076
Default  Posted: 11:31 PM, August 28th (Thursday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I've come to grips to realize that my WH's affair is still going strong two months from DDay and I've initiated proceedings for divorce already and have my house up for sale. I'm moving forward.
Although I am stuck... My WH told his mother that he won't regret his decision (we were together 11 years, married for 1 and have a 5 month old - he started his affair when I was pregnant and continued until I found out when my daughter turned three months). We were high school sweethearts and each others firsts and onlys. He says he feels like an a$$hole for hurting me, that I am an awesome person but he could never go back to me.
Are most of these comments based on the fact that he is caught up in his affair? Because I have such a difficult time believing them.
Is it possible he won't regret leaving me and our daughter and the life we created or the relationship we had?
I have read that they emotional effects eventually catch up and they have to grieve too... Is that true?

Finally, I have detached as much as possible, but how do you stop the love and feelings for them? And the hope? And cross into acceptance? I am scared I could never find love like what I had again... I hate the thought of starting over now... And not being able to love someone else in the future as deep as what I thought I had... I'm worried I could never love someone as much as I'd want to because the feelings I have for my WH will never go away...
Do the love and feelings go away? Or change?s

Me - 27 BS (now 29)
Him - 27 WS (now 29) (EA/PA while I was pregnant)
DDAY - June 12, 2014
One daughter -born March 12, 2014 (during his affair rendezvous before I knew about it)


Posts: 77 | Registered: Jul 2014 | From: Saskatchewan
♀ 43745
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Default  Posted: 12:08 AM, August 29th (Friday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage


I am so sorry that you find yourself here, and that your WH has said the things to you that indicate he is not wanting an R.

You are still so fresh in the trauma, but it is amazing that you have manned up and initiated D proceedings and have house on the market. You acted from a position of strength, you knew deep down what reality was. You deserve a cheering section on how well you have faced the situation and taken care of yourself.

Finally, I have detached as much as possible, but how do you stop the love and feelings for them? And the hope? And cross into acceptance?

I've read so many here who are stuck right back at the "WH could change his mind if I niced them enough." That is not you, but when someone gets left behind, there is still the psychological struggle to deal.

you ask: do you stop the love and feelings for them? And the hope?

I was amazed to find that the dynamic has even been addressed in a peer-reviewed study ( heck with MRI brain scans and all!):

From Fisher et al 2010,Reward, Addiction, and Emotion Regulation Systems Associated With Rejection in Love. Journal of Neurophysiology

However, little is known about the process of unreciprocated love and romantic rejection (Aron et al. 1998; Baumeister et al.1993; Fisher 2004). Investigators have divided separation from parent during development into two general phases: “protest” and “despair” (Bowlby 1969). This is reminiscent of observed behavior following romantic rejection (Lewis et al. 2000). During a protest phase, romantically rejected individuals often obsessively try to win back the beloved. As resignation sets in, they give up and slip into despair. However, these general phases of rejection grief are not yet substantiated. In light of the potentially severe consequences of romantic rejection, as well as its cross-cultural incidence, strong behavioral effects, and association in the literature with addictive behaviors, it is notable that there is only one brain-systems study of this."

for the whole paper, see

If what the researchers present is valid, we experience feelings of despair and disbelief that are sort of wired into us, no matter who we are.

I don't know if that is of any comfort or help; I am a nerd that tries to find a fact that makes sense of the universe, so maybe this only works for me.

But knowing that these feelings may be in some way a normal human reaction might give you a perspective that you can use in working on your questions. Please share this idea with your IC, see how they think it fits with what you are experiencing. For me, knowing that I am not insane to feel these things ( well, at least that I am experiencing something that is a norm) helped me in my thinking.

Again, I want to say that I admire the strength and resolution that you have so far showed in your journey.

ME: 60 BW
HIM: 59 EA & PA, ten months (madboomer)
Married: December 24th, 2013; he started the A in the months before wedding
D/Day: June 3rd 2014 (karma bus ran them over on OW birthday); NC June 4th 2014
Just sad all of the time

Posts: 414 | Registered: Jun 2014 | From: Aotearoa
♂ 34689
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Default  Posted: 2:33 AM, August 29th (Friday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

There comes a day, when you realize, deep inside, that the person you loved, who loved you, no longer truly exists. They have changed, they become a stranger again.

It is sad, it hurts a lot at first, but lessens over time.

Then, if you are true to yourself and your own recovery, you will be able to love someone just as much as you did this first one. I takes a long time. Figure on 2-5 years. My first wife left me over her newfound religious convictions, it was pretty awful, but it passes, you just have to try to stay sane through it all.

BH - Me - Late 30's (now late 40's)
WW - Her - Late 30's (now late 40's)
4 Children
Her - Love of my life...still is.
Reconciled - Partly...she can't get over it.
Her - Thunderstruck by what she did.

Posts: 1151 | Registered: Jan 2012 | From: USA
Member # 44617
Default  Posted: 7:53 AM, August 29th (Friday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Only you can make those feelings go away.

Standinghere put it nicely, he's no longer the person you once fell in love with and eventually they'll become a stranger again.

If you hold onto forlorn love feelings for him, it will probably never go away.

However, if you focus on the fact that the person you once knew and loved is dead and gone, and you have to find it in yourself to move on.

How you do this, by falling in love with yourself again. Do the things you once enjoyed. It's hard at first but just like riding a bike, it comes back quickly.

Will you be able to love someone as deeply some day? Absolutely and probably even deeper.

When my previous partner left me, it took me several months of therapy to realize I had done nothing wrong and he was not the person I thought he was. I knew he had deviances that I didn't welcome into our relationship, that he eventually left me for someone who did.

At the end of it all, him leaving me was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. I was a new person and my confidence grew stronger and I was able to meet someone who I have a much stronger relationship with.

Once you get your mindset out of that rotten place, and realize he's nothing to you anymore, and focus on your future, you will feel alive again and full of fervor.

I wish you strength and endurance.

Posts: 89 | Registered: Aug 2014 | From: Canada
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