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User Topic: Dealing With Depression
pcisconfused
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Default  Posted: 7:15 AM, October 29th (Wednesday), 2008View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Those of you taking Celexa do you like it? I was on Lexapro and doing really well but my insurance company decided I needed to be on the generic form of Celexa. I have been on it for a week and feel awful. Not sure if I should continue to fight my way thru it or call my dr back.


BW (43)
WS (44)
together 14 years
4 kids together
Separated but seeing Counsellor to see if we can R

Posts: 73 | Registered: May 2008
newday2day
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Default  Posted: 7:36 AM, October 30th (Thursday), 2008View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

pcisconfused -

I'm on Celexa and haven't really noticed too much. I did feel very nauseous the first week so I take it at night. I have found (very recently) that I'm having a hard time crying any more. I'm not sure if it's the Celexa or if it's that I'm out of tears because of all the crying.


BS 31
WS 36
Married 9/1/07
D Day #1 1/21/08 - personals ad response
D Day #2 5/15/08 - created 2 personals ads
D Day #3, 4, & 5 10/08 - personals ad response, phone sex, calling escort services
Newest D-Day 1/1/2010 - Will it ever end? This tim

Posts: 95 | Registered: Oct 2008 | From: Michigan
itspjw
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Default  Posted: 4:12 PM, October 31st (Friday), 2008View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I just went on Celexa in addition to the Wellbutrin I was already on two weeks ago.

I haven't had any bad side effects. I do think, though, that it may have limited my ability to cry....I haven't cried as much lately. Of course, I may be out of tears, too! Actually I did cry last night, but not for long. I guess it is possible to cry while taking it!


no, I can't take one more step towards you...cuz all that's waiting is regret...

there's just too much that time cannot erase

dday 9/11/08

And the more I know, the less I understand

Because of you...I am afraid...


Posts: 14786 | Registered: Oct 2008 | From: Texas
dead_but_alive
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Default  Posted: 7:26 PM, October 31st (Friday), 2008View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I went from Lexapro to Celexa with no problems. And about the crying....it has not stopped me from crying. I wish something would. I've been crying for almost a year now (will be 1 year on 11/19).


Me - BW

Separated - 11.19.2007 / DIVORCED - 1.13.2010
-- 19 years, 8 months, 24 days of marriage (including 2 years, 1 month, 26 days of separation) legally ended 1.13.2010. I now officially start my new life.


Posts: 2365 | Registered: Jul 2008 | From: Mississippi
marie1974
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Default  Posted: 4:20 PM, November 3rd (Monday), 2008View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

anyone on topamax or Effexor. I have been on effexor for 10 years. Diagnosed for manic depression. the last year has triggered some major anxiety and compulsive behaviour. so my doc has prescibed Topamax. Only been on it for week now. Feel a little foggy. Just wanted some feed back from anyone on it. Thanks

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beach
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Default  Posted: 7:54 PM, November 3rd (Monday), 2008View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

marie, I am not on topamax, but I am on Effexor XR 76 mg. I started at the end of July at 37.5 mg and my social anxiety was getting worse, so then my family physician increased to 76mg. It's been helping. My impulsiveness (getting on SI) is still there and I am scheduled to see an APRN at the beginning of December for medication management and I will talk to her about it.

When you say feel foggy, is it in your head?


If you don't find peace with yourself, you cannot find anywhere else.
Appreciate and cherish what I have.

Posts: 8680 | Registered: Jul 2005 | From: midwest
whatsforeverfor
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Sad  Posted: 2:08 PM, November 8th (Saturday), 2008View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Has anyone taken Bach Rescue Remedy?

I'm just not sure I'm ready to talk to someone and get a prescription.

I would try exercise, in fact I was exercising for a while and it seemed to help a bit, but I just don't have the energy now. I just can't. I'm not keeping up with anything, even though I very much want to.

I was told that it works well for stress and calming the thoughts. I have a hard time sleeping, when it's quiet at night my mind won't shut off. The stress and lack of good sleep are taking a toll. I look and feel horrible.

I didn't see this mentioned, so I thought I'd ask. Thanks!


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LoveHahAHA
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Default  Posted: 3:01 PM, November 8th (Saturday), 2008View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I sit at my desk with a gun in my hand. trying to understand why she would betray me like this. I did everything and more. The idea of love is laughable to me now. I never understood how people could commit suicide until this moment. This pain is so unbearable that I want death I need it.

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marie1974
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Default  Posted: 3:32 PM, November 8th (Saturday), 2008View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

to Beach: I am on Effexor XR 300 mg daily. But after the A. I was a basket case. So my doc put me on anti axiety Topomax up to 100 mg/ day now. Seems to be helping witht the compulsive thoughts and anxiety. I hope things get better. Effexor really helped. Me. Hope things work out for you.

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Fireball72
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Default  Posted: 5:50 PM, November 8th (Saturday), 2008View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

so my doc has prescibed Topamax. Only been on it for week now. Feel a little foggy. Just wanted some feed back from anyone on it.

I have been on Topamax, but it was a disaster for me, personally. I couldn't remember things, was always in a daze, if you'd asked me my own name I wouldn't have been able to tell you.

I didn't start feeling better until July of this year when I was prescribed Buspirone in combination with the Paxil I'd already been taking (the Paxil alone was helping, but not enough). Even now I'm still struggling sometimes.

Sounds like T's working for you a bit better than it did for me, though.


XBS - 42 and fabulous :D
I may not say much, but I'm always happy to be of help to anyone in need. :)

Posts: 594 | Registered: Jul 2008 | From: The Chesapeake Bay
Lonerider
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Default  Posted: 11:17 AM, December 1st (Monday), 2008View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Can I have my week of vacation back?

I just took off last week since our youngest daughter was out of school. Coincidentally, my wife's anti-anxiety med is not working, she was a basket case most of the week, crying, agitated, anxious, a freaking wreck.

I'm sorry, the reason I work in computers is because working intensively with troubled people drains me, I don't have much left to give. I hope her doctor gives her something that works.


BS me 43 years old
WS her 45 years old
married 14 years, together 20
2 kids
D-day 7/15/05

Posts: 4225 | Registered: Dec 2005 | From: western NY
Chunk
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Default  Posted: 12:34 AM, December 3rd (Wednesday), 2008View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I think I'm visiting this thread (mood) for a little while until I get myself out of this funk.

I've battled depression pretty much all my life though mildly until I had my son. After his birth I slipped into a deep depression. It was a slipping feeling too. I felt like I was slipping into a dark place and the light was shrinking.

I became a person I had never been. I was sad, hopeless, helpless, tired, scattered, numb and yet my thoughts were very painful. I would obsess about stupid stuff. I was afraid of being in big crowds. I had anxiety like you wouldn't believe.

I finally, after four years of just either hoping it would go away or going nowhere when I did try went to a mental health facility. I was out of my mind with depression that I would have been happy if they'd committed me. I couldn't cope, with anything.

I look at pictures of myself back then and I actually see the sickness in my face. I even looked kind of yellow!

I eventually did come out of that deep dark place. I took a couple of years but I did it. In the heels of my healing came my H's affair. I feel thankful that I was passed my depression because I don't think I would have survived if I'd been in the low place I had been.

But having depression once, I am learning, is like be in remission from cancer. You have to always monitor yourself and make sure you're emotional cancer stays in remission.

So lately, though many circumstances, I am feeling the snake-like presence of my depression wrapping slowly around me. It is squeezing me slowly.

I am going to go the doctor because I don't need to be clinically depressed every again in my life. But the depression, this time, is scaring me again, because it feels stronger than it has in a long time.

Oh, I hate it. I really, really hate it. The self hatred. The constant criticism of myself. The nasty creepy thoughts.

It makes me sad.


I wish I could explain it. That it goes beyond a simple case of the blues.


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Chunk
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Default  Posted: 12:38 AM, December 3rd (Wednesday), 2008View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I can't cry either. That scares me. I was like that when I was deep in the shit.

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survivinglies
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Default  Posted: 9:53 AM, December 4th (Thursday), 2008View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Do I need to ask Dr to "up my meds"??
I am on Celexa every day and Xanax every other day. Lately, I will go a whole day without crying, only to have a breakdown and a nervous stomach the next day. Am I building a tolerance or is this just expected 7 mos after d-day? I can't imagine what I'd be like without meds!


BS (me)
WS (him)- ONS 1995, 3 month EA 0708
Married: 18, Together: 20, DS & DD
"Onlies" until ONS
95-98 trickle-"we didn't have sex"
D-day #1 (1/23/2008- EA OW#2)
D-day #2 (5/1/2008- ONS OW#1)
Isaiah 40:31

Posts: 1397 | Registered: May 2008 | From: U.S., just a few miles south of insanity
beach
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Default  Posted: 9:59 AM, December 4th (Thursday), 2008View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

(((Chunk))) I hope you can get in to see a Dr. soon. Please keep us posted.

survivinglies,
please call your doctor.


If you don't find peace with yourself, you cannot find anywhere else.
Appreciate and cherish what I have.

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browneyesblue
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Default  Posted: 10:02 AM, December 4th (Thursday), 2008View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I was just diagnosed with depression and was given lexapro. Before the medicine, I couldn't focus on anything anymore...it was like a part of my brain was missing, the part that told me what steps to take to get stuff done. All I can do during the day is think about what he's done and what a sham of a marriage it's been.

[This message edited by browneyesblue at 10:04 AM, December 4th (Thursday)]


Me: BS 41
Him: WS 49
Married 6 yrs, together 9 years
2 children, 4.5 yrs & 21 months
DDAY 08/16/08, but kept quiet for 2.5 weeks until I could gather all my evidence. I confronted him on 9/3/08 - he admitted everything, even more than I knew.

Posts: 78 | Registered: Nov 2008 | From: TX
Copeland
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Default  Posted: 10:13 AM, December 4th (Thursday), 2008View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Everybody, please keep in mind that there are many many good ADs & anti anxiety meds out there. If one isn't working or seems to be making things worse, go right back to the doc and talk about it. You might need to try a few before its right.


Male 49-No longer defining myself by fidelity roles...been both. Time for a new start.
"Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack in everything. That's how the light gets in."-Leonard Cohen

Posts: 854 | Registered: Sep 2008 | From: Midwest
Lonerider
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Default  Posted: 11:08 AM, December 4th (Thursday), 2008View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Yes, you need to have a close relationship with your doctor. My DW is feeling much better on klonopin, the zyprexa just made things worse.


BS me 43 years old
WS her 45 years old
married 14 years, together 20
2 kids
D-day 7/15/05

Posts: 4225 | Registered: Dec 2005 | From: western NY
Fireball72
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Default  Posted: 1:24 AM, December 13th (Saturday), 2008View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I'm not doing well on the Paxil anymore. Lately I've been more and more apathetic... can hardly get out of bed in the morning... I feel like I'm just existing and not living.

The holidays are making this so much worse for me. I no longer have any family, and very few friends due to my illness... so this time of the year is hard. I was also in a psychiatric hospital with a mental breakdown at this time last year... and there is nothing, nothing, nothing lonelier in the world than being in a locked psych ward with no visitors during the Christmas holidays.

Tonight I hate my XH. He was supposed to be my family, damn it. He was supposed to love and cherish me. What happened? Why did he do this to me?

I'm sorry, I know I'm not doing well tonight. I'm scared even to admit that I feel like doing myself in because that'll just land me right back into the psych ward if I ever admit that to anyone... I know I won't do it. But I'm so afraid. I feel apathetic and uncaring... and yet it hurts so much... how can you not care and hurt at the same time?

God help me.


XBS - 42 and fabulous :D
I may not say much, but I'm always happy to be of help to anyone in need. :)

Posts: 594 | Registered: Jul 2008 | From: The Chesapeake Bay
itspjw
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Default  Posted: 12:38 AM, December 15th (Monday), 2008View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

(((fireball)))

i understand.

please go see your dr. it might be time to change your meds, or add something else. my dr. just recently (after dday) added celexa to my wellbutrin. it is helping.

i have never, ever considered suicide as an option, because i have always been able to remember that over time things change.

however, i find myself lately getting closer and closer to that edge. i still know that tomorrow i will feel differently. i know i am still on that stupid rollercoaster (anyone know how to get off?).

recently, my dr prescribed sonata to help me fall back asleep when i wake up in the middle of the night.

it is a controlled substance, could be addictive, etc.

it has occurred to me that this could do the job, if i decided i wanted to end it.

i was horrified when i realized what had just occurred to me.

i am not going to do anything to hurt myself. i have two kids to think of.

but it scares me that i even had that thought. i wonder if i should give the pills to my h to hold onto, only giving me one at a time.

i have only taken 3 in the week and a half since i got them, so i am definitely not abusing them.

god, i hate depression.

i had gone on ad's in 2001, shortly after 9/11. i will never forget the pit i was in at that time. i was on them for about a year, then got off.

i was okay for awhile, but kept a close watch on my mood, because i did not want to fall into that pit again.

so i ended up asking dr for ads again about a year ago. we started with zoloft, but ended up with wellbutrin. as i mentioned earlier, after dday, we recently added celexa

chunk, it is totally like remission from cancer. once you have had it, you have to really be aware for it s return. and, it sometimes, it creeps up on you, and you don't even realize it until it is almost too late.

i think i have come to the realization (with my dr. and c input) that i may never be able to go off ad's. once those connections in the brain are broken, they can't always be repaired.

and, you know what? if taking meds the rest of my life keeps me out of that pit, i am totally up for it.

i take meds for my high cholesterol, acid reflux, and allergies. taking meds for depression is no different. i don't like having to take meds of any kind, but if it keeps me healthy and able to take care of my family, i am going to do it.

fortunately, i have finally gotten my h to start understanding it, and understanding it is a medical condition, not something i can just snap out of. so, now i have him keeping an eye on my mood, too. i think this is very important, since it can be so sneaky.

wow, i seem to be rambling in pretty much every post lately. i'm done now!


no, I can't take one more step towards you...cuz all that's waiting is regret...

there's just too much that time cannot erase

dday 9/11/08

And the more I know, the less I understand

Because of you...I am afraid...


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