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Default  Posted: 12:05 AM, April 29th (Sunday), 2007View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

How many of us who've been treated for depression have had to change AD meds at least once since your depression first started? How many have had to switch meds more than once?

I've been on a few different AD meds during the last 8 or so years.

I first tried Zoloft which treated the depression very well but absolutely killed my libido.

I then tried Effexor which worked well for awhile but, after about a year on it, I developed side effects to it that outweighed any benefit I was getting. (no libido, gaining lots of weight and profuse night sweats - to the point I'd wake up with soaking wet sheets)

Then I tried Celexa which worked great until D-day. My psychiatrist upped the dose of Celexa a little bit but it still didn't work and she switched me to Lexapro.
I loved Lexapro. It was fantastic, no side effects whatsoever. Then our insurance decided to make it non-formulary and the co-pay was too much so I had to switch again.

I went back on Celexa (60 mg/day) and it is working.

If you are having sexual side effects while taking an SSRI ask your doctor about something called Cyproheptadine.

It is an older antihistamine that when taken 30-40 minutes prior to sexual intercourse counteracts the typical SSRI sexual side effects.

My psychiatrist recently prescribed cyproheptadine for me when I told her I could not orgasm and was having a difficult time really getting into sex. It doesn't work for everyone but it worked VERY well for me.

Edited for spelling errors

[This message edited by sunlil at 12:07 AM, April 29th (Sunday)]

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Default  Posted: 1:55 PM, April 30th (Monday), 2007View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I take Wellbutrin and Lexapro. It works ok. Hell on the weight gain and sex drive though.

I doubt that I could get off of them without being dropped off on a deserted island with lots of beer and Dr Phil.

Fuck! I hate depression.

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Default  Posted: 3:45 PM, May 4th (Friday), 2007View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

How do you learn to be happy? I have dealt with depression all my life but had to go off my med 2 years ago because I moved to place with no doctors willing to take new patients (long story). I went off cold turkey in 1 month and had the DT's - I don't recommend it.

WS's A has made it worse. I am a different type of sad. I literally had one night where I thought - it is not suicide if you take half a bottle of pills and half a bottle of booze.

The worst part is WS are trying to work things out but he calls me a drama queen for mentioning the suicidal thoughts. He tells me he wants to make me happy but can't figure out how.

I know I am the only who can make me happy. How do I start?


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Default  Posted: 9:10 PM, May 4th (Friday), 2007View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

First bout of anxiety/depression at age 8. Next one age 15. Next one age 20. Next one age 22. Did not receive treatment for any of them (except when I was 8 -- the pediatrician had me take something to knock me out at night so I could sleep -- that broke the cycle).

OK fastforward to my early 30s --- a series of huge disappointments and major life stressors coupled with being married to an emotional retard (apologies to anyone involved with the developmentally delayed population -- I'm using a "slang phrase" here).

Went on Paxil about five years ago. Althought every day is not perfect, especially in the winter, I function very well and relate well to people MOST of the time (my worst problem is social anxiety which leads to depression).

I've often wondered if FWH is a longterm cause of my stress. He's a reliable, steady, nice guy but seriously lacking in the empathy and emotional sophistication department.

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Default  Posted: 9:30 PM, May 5th (Saturday), 2007View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I have been on the Lexapro 10mg for a week now and I haev to say I feel better. Im not "little miss perky"....but then again I never have been that kind of person. But I can tell a difference. Im handling the stress of my kids esp my ADHD son alot better. Seems to help with me appetite too, so thats a plus.

Posts: 3902 | Registered: May 2005 | From: Allergy Hell
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Default  Posted: 3:16 PM, May 12th (Saturday), 2007View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I'm wondering, has anyone had their depression worsen as the divorce nears? Needed to up or change their meds? Does it go away once the D is finalized?

If you can't go to bed with a good man, go to bed with a good book. It's much better company in the long run.

Jodi Thomas

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Default  Posted: 5:16 PM, May 12th (Saturday), 2007View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Just wanted to touch base with you about learning to be happy. Medication is only one part of a multilevel approach to treating depression. Defeating depression requires you to learn to care for yourself physically, Mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

Physically: Medication, exercise, eating enough protein, drinking enough water and getting enough rest.

Mentally: Learning to recognise and change distortions in your thinking (Feeling good handbook by David Burns). Learning the nature and power of thought. When you are ready, engaging in something mentally challenging.

Emotionally: Learning and practicing relaxation techniques, distress tolerance, Emotion regulation. Developing a social support system.

Spiritually: Finding out more about God (or your higher power). Learning to communicate with him and rely on him for help. Discovering meaning...

Working on any of these may be a helpful start.

(By the way, there are a number of over the counter suppliments that are supposed to be helpful if you don't want to take "anti depressents". I have heard that they work but I would research them well before trying them. St Johns wort - don't take with an anti dep without talking to Dr.,
5-HTP - don't take with an anti dep without talking to Dr., DLPA - don't take DLPA if you have PKU, and SAMe - be careful regarding SAMe if you have a tendency toward manic episodes...again research suppliments carefully before taking any!)

[This message edited by vidajeanne at 5:48 PM, May 12th (Saturday)]

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Frustrated  Posted: 10:01 AM, May 21st (Monday), 2007View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Well I got my meds increased but yesterday as I was trying to get all my paperwork organized and last minute additions put together for arbitration today I had a major full blown panic/anxiety attack.

Right now all I can say is "I hate my life" .

If you can't go to bed with a good man, go to bed with a good book. It's much better company in the long run.

Jodi Thomas

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Default  Posted: 6:45 PM, May 23rd (Wednesday), 2007View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I only read the past few posts. All of my life I have been dealing with depression on one level or another. The first feelings I remember are guilt and depression. Probably part is biologically based and part b/c of physical, sexual, emotional and verbal abuse. The abuse in all of those areas was at a low level but all pervasive.

I agree with the poster who said that exercise, spirituality and nutrition have alot of impact on alleviating depression. For me I have found that I need a strong anti-stress vitamin, and a b complex, along with exercise, diet and spirituality.

I tried same-e but I think that it caused bowel problems. I have colitis and have to be careful of my diet. I eat very little meat, butter, and dairy.

Depression is such a downer. I have had alot of suicide ideation ever since ijfo. With going back to the vitamins and such, I am doing better.

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Default  Posted: 12:58 AM, May 26th (Saturday), 2007View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

During IC we figured out that I have prolly been suffering for depression since I was in high school. But hid it rather well. During Dday1 in 2005 Dr put me on Celexa I thought I was cured and stopped taking, then was on Wellbufrin made me agry, then it was Lexapro and finally now I'm on Cymbalta 60mg and Lorazepam.
The only thing I have a problem with them is the decrease in appetite....I hardly at b/4 and now I have to force myself to eat. Family starting to yell at me for the weight lost....Which has been a lot since 2005

BS 47
WH 44
Married 17 years,
DDay 12/05
Filed for divorce 2/07put it off till the light went on in my head. Signed papers 11/26/08

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Sad  Posted: 11:36 PM, May 27th (Sunday), 2007View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

This is officially, one of the awful days...I felt so bad I didn't even go to church. I barely manage to get out of bed right now to get to the computer but I'm already looking for an excuse to go back to bed...

Real love is a CHOICE, NOT a feeling...

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Default  Posted: 8:49 PM, May 28th (Monday), 2007View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I had a hellish day today. All weekend I've been so sad - tears come easily.

Do you ever feel like there is some sort of barrier between you and the rest of the world? I feel so much lately like I'm with people, but there is plexiglass between me and the rest of the world. You know, like being lonely in a room full of people? Does this make sense or am I rambling?

I've decided to stop drinking for awhile. I know I shouldn't mix the anti-ds and alcohol, but it hasn't been a real problem until recently. I just have a lot of stuff going on right now.


Even if you can't control the world around you, you are still the master of your own soul.

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Default  Posted: 8:55 PM, May 28th (Monday), 2007View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I haven't read this whole thread but I totally belong here! My first official depression I remember was in college and I would want to make myself throw up after eating--I never did. I have completely suffered with it continuously for 10 years.

I tried to take welbuterin and it almost killed me. The PA I saw said there was nothing else I could take.

After D-day I bega taking lexapro which literally changed my life. I suffer from SAD also and I don't think my dose is high enogh for the winter. Right now I have no health insurance and am out so I am trying to figure out what to do.


"as tough as wanting something is, those who suffer most are those who don't know what they want."-- Grey's Anatomy

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Default  Posted: 6:28 AM, June 3rd (Sunday), 2007View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I had no idea how depressed I was, I had suspected an affair the entire time and did catch him on my own with no real support. By the time the A was out I was a wreck, he was in the fog and I finally left. I went to my doctor to get tested for everything under the sun and he said that I really needed meds. They really did help. I am still taking Xanax and it helps me keep the edge off.

Me: BS
Him: FWH
Married: 18 years

Status: In R

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Default  Posted: 10:56 PM, June 16th (Saturday), 2007View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I'm still not ready to go back to meds...I have been off for almost 10 years and I haven't tried something stupid since but I can help to wonder if meds would fix me this time around. Technically, meds have improved a lot since but I can't help to be afraid.

Real love is a CHOICE, NOT a feeling...

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Default  Posted: 12:08 PM, June 18th (Monday), 2007View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage


I don't know what to do. Our dday was in Dec. 06. The A ended right before I found out about it. My H has always dealt with depression his entire life - never diagnosed - would never talk to anyone about it.

He is at an all time low right now and I don't know what to do. He hasn't worked, taken a bath, nothing for 2 weeks - missed our sons graduation this morning - couldn't get out of bed.

He sleeps all day, wakes up - eats, cries, sleeps.

I called the local hospital - they said he had to come in voluntarily - I know he wont't. Does anyone have any ideas - what can I do?

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Default  Posted: 12:51 PM, June 18th (Monday), 2007View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I can't believe I missed this thread.

I was recently diagnosed by my new IC as chronically depressed. Probably have been since the affairs started in 1994.

She recently referred me to a psychiatrist, but I haven't called yet. I just thought those overwhelming waves of saddness were because of the monumental devasation from Dday. I had been feeling pretty good about myself for a year or so prior. She said Dday probably just short circuited the fragile repair I had done by myself with diet and exercise.

My original IC told me to think about ADs a long time ago. They are a huge trigger for me because my H suggested them when he was busy gaslighting me at the very beginning of this whole mess 13 yeras ago. I was depressed, didn't know why and saw my Dr who prescribed them. The reason was actually that my H was cheating on me right and left and my reality wasn't lining up with what my gut was saying.

I have a particularly hard time living in the NOW. Everything is a trigger for me, especially since my H is dealing with his own issues of self-worth and guilt and reacts with anger when I get in one of my saddness episodes.

Has anyone else had a spouse who's completely clueless on the issue of depression. How did you educate them? I'm thinking of having our MC talk to him tonight.

ETA: He seems to think this is "all in my head" and I can talk myself out of it or rather that I talk myself INTO the depressive states.

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Dday: 9/12/05
M: 29 yrs( me anyway )
BS(me): 55 And I'm ok with that
FWS: 57- Multiple PAs, LTA 7? yrs.

Try not. Do or do not, there is no try. -- Yoda

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Default  Posted: 2:53 PM, June 18th (Monday), 2007View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Not sure how I missed this thread, but I'm happy to have found it now.

I am newly diagnosed with depression, brought on by my H's As, and exacerbated by my very stressful day to day life. I am going to see a phych to get tested and a Rx for meds. I have been adverse to meds for a loooooong time, but I know I need them. I am barely functioning.

ANYONE HERE BREASTFEEDING A BABY AND TAKING MEDS? I'm curious which meds you are taking. Did you get your hormone levels tested too? I know hormones is playing a big role for me, as I have been either pregnant or nursing for almost 4 years straight.

Just tired of feeling like a sucker.

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Default  Posted: 3:12 PM, June 18th (Monday), 2007View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage


I am not BF now, but I did nurse my son till he was 29 months and was on meds most of that time. I took Zoloft because that is the med my Dr. said has the most studies done on it in nursing mothers and the amount that passes into the milk is very negligible.

FWS...very new all still very raw
Married 8 years, together 10
Me, 31 BS, 32
One 3 year old son
D-day June 10, 2007

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Default  Posted: 5:24 PM, June 18th (Monday), 2007View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

One more question folks. Has anyone tried alternative treatments like St. Johns Wort or holistic medicines before going on the ADs?

Is there any info out there for families living with the depressed. Like that might tell them yelling at the person or trying to joke them out of it won't work?

Dday: 9/12/05
M: 29 yrs( me anyway )
BS(me): 55 And I'm ok with that
FWS: 57- Multiple PAs, LTA 7? yrs.

Try not. Do or do not, there is no try. -- Yoda

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