It still gets me that he did it THEN and that he then took out newborn to OWs house. He says she never held her but I don't believe that.
Today, I tried to talk to wh and expressed concern that this may turn into chronic fatigue. Mono is supposed to last a month or two with fatigue continuing a few months longer. My symptoms will be a year next month. Ahole wh said today, don't think about that, you could cause it to happen because you are focusing on it. For the first time in a very long time I cried.
I have not caused this a**hole. It is a virus, that you can't medicate. However I am sure that the stress of dealing with his lta has not helped in anyway. A wedding to get through and then I believe I am done. He apologised for his choice of words and said he was trying to be "helpful" and encouraging. I said you don't remember that I have been exhausted since our vacation last summer. He said he has a bad memory, right. Yeah, thanks. end of rant..
I have been fighting Osteoarthritis and Degenerative spine disease for over 15 years. I lost a 7 mill a year biz I spent 20 years building and running on my own. I'm currently trying to survive on disability and just had to file for chapter 7. As bad as that is, I've always had the mind set that there are millions worse off than I am.
That is until I discovered WW's LTA last year. I can handle the constant pain, no sleep, even the depression, but finding out that the one person who you most depended on and thought had your back no matter what, was/is a pain almost to great to bear.
I'm currently fighting memories of WW cyber sexing OM while I was being cut open last June for a THR. The thought of her telling him she wanted oral sex and even scoping out a remote area of the hospital during a previous surgery two months prior still makes me want to puke!!
I can't wrap my head around how anyone could be so uncaring & cruel while their supposed life partner could be bleeding out on the operating table. Sorry, but there just aren't any excuses for that and I don't know if I'll ever get past it.
Today is the anniversary of my THR and it's really a bad day/week for me. Of course WW can't seem to get why this is such a trigger for me.
Who are these people and where are their hearts when they do these despicable things to us!?
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I made a list of all my symptoms for the past 3 years and took it to my PCP. She read it and said "you're right, somehting is wrong." she did 24 blood tests and I was dx'd with CEBV, Fibro and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. These all go hand in had so please have your doctor check you for these. I am still trying to prove that I have either Lupus or RA as my joints swell and I get hives in the heat.
Spouses to leave and have affairs when their mates are ill are the lowest of the low to me. My stbx was disabled when I married him but when I became disabled he dumped me and took up with a ho and an ugly one at that! I have no respect for anyone who leaves a spouse who is ill.
At my first appointment after the D, I updated my status on my forms from married to single. Doc came in to the exam room and said that my A1c had dropped 2.5 points since my previous visit 4 months before. She noted my status change and said, "while I don't always see such a dramatic improvement after a divorce, I see it more than you might think . . ."
[This message edited by Saddernow at 1:24 PM, July 5th (Thursday)]