These are the things that My Lollipop has done that i will never take for granted:
-given me a second chance saying that he will stay until he sees there is no hope
-offered to be there as i work through my issues and will give it to me straight
-tells me what i need to do so that i am not flying blind, we talk about what he needs from me
But i do not deserve what he has done for me so i am saying what i will do for him:
-write a letter stating all the lies i have ever told in the course of our relationship. if i am ever to become honest i have to start from somewhere
-get closure on all flirtations that i encouraged because of my lack of boundaries & closure on any relationships i had because i am still carrying old boyfriend baggage around(which will aso include new NC agreements as old boyfriends includes APs)
-Doing something everyday that speaks his love language (i suck at this so it is a big one, being selfish meant that i only considered my needs not his)
-getting my issues with my father sorted without taking them out on My Lollipop(difficult considering i have never had a conversation that lasted longer than 5min with him on anything other than education and money)
seeing as the list is short, all help and suggestions are appreciated from those who ha e travelled this road before.
update on progress in 24hrs
Me-WSO 22yrs
Him- BSO 22yrs
D-day1: 18/07/2010
D-day2: 28/07/2010
Engaged, together for 3yrs
I stabbed his heart. Even if i withdraw it it will still bleed. Even if it heals i will have to live with the scar for the rest of my life, that is th
