H came home tonight and showed me a text from OW - she thinks she's miscarrying.
We've been talking about it this evening. He's very distraught - he's caught between feeling sorry that something bad is happening to her (not because he wants to go back to her, and I do believe he's being sincere) and feeling a sense of relief that there may not be a baby after all. I have to admit, I'm feeling the same. I'm having trouble not feeling like a horrible person for being relieved that we may not have THAT to deal with on top of everything else.
But then again, it's something different every couple of days. So, we're proceeding with caution. Who knows what tomorrow will bring.
Don't feel bad for feeling a potential sense of relief, with so much on your plate right now, anyone would be relieved to have one less thing to mull over.
H came home tonight and showed me a text from OW - she thinks she's miscarrying.
You would be suprised how many OWs announce their pregnancy after the MM tries to cut them loose...and then announce their miscarriage.
Now, in her pathetic little mind, she gets to play on your H's sympathy for the miscarriage...which keeps a door open for her...and it seems your H is falling for it.
Most likely she was never pg to begin with. Just another how to chapter in the OW handbook.
My BFF's H had an A, and the OW did this. Her H broke NC and fell back into the A full force for another 1.5 years, took it deep underground. He eventually found out there was no baby, that OW was crazier than he ever imagined and left her.
Well, as for my sitch, OC turned 4 this past week. Easiest birthday yet. I didn't cry, didn't even mope about not being involved (for the new people, we are NC). I saw pics on Facebook on my stepdaughter's page, and I barely think a thing, the only thing that even began to bother me was the caption; "My baby sister, 17 years difference but she was so worth the wait."
This from the stepdaughter that told me FWH & I's DD was probably not FWH's because I was a "whore", and even if it was FWH's baby, she would be "ugly and retarded" because of my genes (yes, stepdaughter is an adult).
Also found OW's address to her new apt, and we plan to have adoption papers sent there, since she has posted all over the internet that her new H(former MM!) is adopting OC. Hopefully she'll do it, if not it will call her bluff.
June will be 5 YEARS since Dday. We have healed well. I don't even get an adrenaline rush/feeling of dread in my gut when I think of OC/OW (I still hate her fucking guts though for the things she did post A!!! ). For the new members, this IS survivable.
Oh, it also helps that OW is fatter than she has ever been.
[This message edited by Want2help at 8:14 PM, March 21st (Wednesday)]
I questioned the pregnancy from day one - felt the timing was just too convenient. On the other hand, I feel like on some level I have to act as if it's true until we know for sure.
The longer this goes on though, the more I do believe she's just doing this to keep stringing him along and keep a door open for communication.
Yesterday she told him she was going to the dr. Today she told him that the doctor said her hormone levels were low, and that combined with the bleeding she was "more than likely" miscarrying. That's twice now that the answer has been "more than likely." And I'm convinced it's because this is her only remaining connection to him.
For the most part, he's been very remorseful and very transparent. He has shown me texts and IMs from her - there haven't been many, thank goodness. He shows me receipts from his lunches, checks in with me throughout the day, and I do think that he's making a genuine effort. Maybe that's naive at this point...
But THIS - THIS is where he fails. She opened the door with the Dr. appointment conversation yesterday, then asked him about some work project - it's not a project they work on together. When I pointed out that she had no real reason to ask him this information - that it should have been posed to her superiors, or could have been answered by ANYONE else in the company, he looked like I had just smacked him on the head with a brick. He really didn't see that this was an attempt to draw him back in.
We'll be discussing this with our counselor this afternoon, but I want proof if she's pregnant - I want the results from the pregnancy test or some kind of confirmation that she's not pregnant. We need closure on this issue so we can try to figure out how move on.
On another note, I am so impressed by the strength of the people in this group. It is truly amazing that in the face of such devastating circumstances we can find a way to make it through. Continued prayers for everyone here that you find peace and happiness.
This little plan is working great for OW...she is getting lots of contact with your H...and his sympathy/worry.
Be VERY careful of any kind of contact. Your H is freshly "off" the affair train...and it is very easy to get back on it this early in the game and so much continued contact no matter how remorseful he seems to you. Trust me, the OW next step is to get your H to sleep with her again so that she truly can become pg. You wouldn't believe how many times THAT has happened.
Can you afford an attorney to work as your go between so that your H does not have to have any type of contact with OW?
Affording an attorney would be difficult right now, but I'm certainly going to look into it.
And I would not recommend your H representing himself...no matter how standard the case may be. Trust me...ow's will make any standard case into a three ring circus if it benefits them in anyway.
Also, if your H is going to be in the OC's life at all, he should go for joint LEGAL custody now. We learned the hard way it is VERY hard to get joint legal later.
And yes on the hundreds of thousands of dollars. I did the math...18 years will cost us $275,000 roughly, not counting court fees. Sigh. And this state can potentially go up to 21...so maybe add 3 more years of $ down the drain.
If there is ANYWAY to afford a lawyer, get one. I had to cash out some of my retirement to help my fwh out because no way was I sending him into the shark pit of the family court system that we have up here! He was already getting screwed enough
(((to us all)))
FWH is unemployed, now enrolled in a retraining program thru the local community college, collecting unemployment ("Training Unemployment Insurance" they call it). Barely $1000 a month. His CS was lowered when OW was making $16 an hour working nights as a CNA. She went to days, losing $3 an hour, tried to get it lowered, they didn't let her (she chose to reduce her income).
Well, due to FWH's CS he pays on his D from his previous M (who is 19), combined the CS amounts are more than unemployment can legally take from his check, so $19 a month of the CS due to OC doesn't get paid and goes to back CS (we did not know this until today).
We go to the Post Office (something FWH usually does) and pick up the mail, see the monthly statement the Child Support office sends out. I open it, and FWH says "I always just throw those away, it is just the same thing every month." I look anyway, and see that in addition to the $19 a month going to arrears, CS is tacking on a $90 "FEE"!!! WTF?! He went from almost having his arrears paid(from the months it took to get the dna test results back) to almost $800! In just a few months!!
So, I am of course pissed.
He could have caught this, had he just read the god damned paperwork. Something similar happened with his exW, and he is now THOUSANDS in arrears, because he never looked at the paperwork, and by the time he did it couldn't be changed retroactively! (That was before I was in the picture). Uhm, how stupid can you be?! Does he want to go through the same thing again?!
So, he is calling the CS office tomorrow to see what in the hell is going on, and we will be scraping up the money to get a lawyer to draw up adoption papers ASAP. During the last over-the-phone CS hearing between OW and FWH she yelled "If he would just let my new H adopt OC, he wouldn't even have to pay CS!"
Well, put your money where your mouth is, cow! We will be drawing up the papers for you to sign! I want this sea cow out of my life!!!
Also, see if your state offers LAR lawyers (Limited Assistance Representation). These lawyers offer their services "a la carte" and charge you minimal. It's what the cOW did for her attorney and what we would've done if we couldn't come up with the $. At least you get some representation/assistance with the lingo/filing/paperwork/laws. The LAR attorney doesn't always go to court with you (the cOW's did), but they help with the meat and potatoes of all the paperwork.
((want2help))) goodluck!!! My biggest wish is that the cOW finds someone to not only occupy her time, but to also adopt the OC. I hope it works out for you! I will be hoping and hoping for you.