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I am not much better this morning...

Yesterday I received my copy of the Discovery Questions and Request of Production of Documents that my lawyer has prepared to send to STBXH's lawyer.

While I know this is part of the process, and that there is some pertinent information I need to begin financial negotiations, I began to shake after reading through the list. For my own security, I will not mention which items made my stomach flip, but let's just say I needed to take a Xanax before bed.

My STBXH has anger issues. Those of you who have read my previous posts may recall that he has stated time and time again that he "will not be bullied". When he receives these documents from his lawyer, he is going to go into a rage.

I know he has to own it and that his choices over the past 10 years have brought us to this point. But, I am scared. Any small about of amicability in our current relationship will be completely gone. He will be on a path to want to destroy me in any way he can. I KNOW this.

Please remind me to stay strong and fight the fight that I need to for me and my children.

I. Hate. This.

[This message edited by macakipa at 10:58 AM, May 17th (Thursday)]

Bullies never want to be bullied!

Don't worry, your lawyer and the courts will do the enforcing for you.

Don't engage with his threats, but do document them. Communicate through written means only from now on. This leaves a documented trail that can be used in court if needed.

Let him rage. Continue as planned. The insanity will end in time.

Good luck!

Do not discuss the D proceedings with him. It's not your problem if he gets angry, and if he tries to threaten or intimidate you make sure your lawyer speaks to his lawyer about it.

Don't talk to him anymore. I know what you mean about being afraid of your STBX bullying you. I'm in the same position. I tell my lawyer everything about how he treats me, including the fact that he hangs up on me every time we talk on the phone about the kids.

Hang in there. You can do this, one baby step at a time.

Great advice here.

Sending you strength & huge hugs!

In a way Discovery helped me know where I was in life. These things get strewn about and are sometimes hard to find. Now I has them in one spot and can move forward with the D (after 1 yr sep).

Hey, they don't even read all the stuff, just don't call attention to detail. I guess it depends what triggered xanax.

No alimony for her then. The naughty WS was caught. I had the patience of a dumb STBXH.

Thank you all for your support.

I know this is course the divorce journey has to take. The discoveries concern dissipated funds. And, I have been really strong with my resolve up until yesterday.

I am still experiencing those flutters of anxiety in my stomach. Fear over my STBXH's attempts at possible physical, but most definitely mental, emotional and economical retaliation, but also fear of that slight chance that I could be cutting my nose off to spit my face. That I will run up lawyer and legal fees for possibly, just possibly nothing.

I have placed trust in my gut feelings. They haven't steered me wrong since this nightmare began. I also have full faith and trust in my lawyer. But this whole process is testing my surety.

What can I say? I know what that anxiety is like and the fear of reprisals.

Hugs macakipa. Hang in there. We are all here for you.