Ok, we are a week out and had a couple of good days, I hope this post doesn't trigger her too badly, but I need to finish this, for both of us.
Not long after the the first EA I was contacted by the daughter of an ex. I had raised the girl as my own for her first two years. We talked on and off for a couple of months before she started having trouble with her mom. I was sent an email by the ex wanting me to try to talk to her daughter. I agreed. After that the ex and I talked on an off every few months just catching up on what been going on in our lives and our families. Now a couple of months ago we both ended up joining a group on FB filled with old high school friends. We started talking more and more.
At some point someone posted something about the women posting pic of themselves. Most of them said you they could post those on FB. So I said if they would post I'd create them a site to post on. That's when I got the first pic from the ex.
The site had nine members four of which were women. Two of the women posted 3 pics each.
The ex then started to send me some more graffic pics and vids titled "just for you" I sent some back.
Do to my kids sometimes using my computer I created another site just for her to post these on...
At first I didn't think what I was doing was anything more than looking at porn...now I know better.
I have started IC, I have NC with everyone that was a member of the website and left all FB groups. We also ordered some of the books listed on this site...
I never want to hurt my wife like that again, it kills me to see her in pain. That's one of the reasons it has taken me so long to finish this post, like I said we had some good days. This may change it but I needed to post.