thank u all sooo very much for your encouraging words...
and for those who have responded to let me know that my story has somehow helped -- that means so much to me
So now that you've figured out that your stronger when you don't reply at all to him, and that you don't need him, how about blocking his number from your phone? Why would you want to keep being bothered by him? Because all he's doing is fishing to see if you'll take the hook again. Go total NC. (((hugs)))
my phone doesn't have this feature. He did keep sending texts April 29th and 30th
April 30th I told him off again. Called him a "LIAR" and a "F*CKIN' LYIN' AS*HOLE"
Told him to go call (OW name)and that they deserve eachother. Told him I could take a shovel to them both just like Johnny Depp did at the end of Secret Window. and finally:
"You put me thru hell because of (OW name) your precious (OW nickname) that you wouldn't give up. Lonely? Let her s*ck your d*ck. You're her (nickname she gave him). Bye."
He just kept saying "Bring your ass home", "Get your butt home" "Your bugging out" "Stop tripping" "Get with the program and come home." Things to that effect. After I said Bye I did not respond further. Its been a week. Haven't received another text.
Been getting out and having fun - the way I used to before I was with him. Seeing live music, meeting people... having a couple drinks without worrying about HIM over-doing it!
I know I'm getting better -- the other night I had a dream -- I found myself waking up in (what was) our bedroom -- "Oh no! How did I get here?! I said I'd never be go back!" I was freaking out mentally.... Thought "This has to be a dream" and tried to wake myself up -- Was sooooo relieved when I woke up for real - safe and sound here (where I'm staying with family). Even tho I'm living out of a couple of bags - I feel at home now vs. how displaced and lost when I first left.
(((NewMom0220))))(((sunshine226)))(((HURTAGAIN1981))) and all who are hurting in the midst of this experience we been thrust into that totally SUCKS!