You asked where I am today in my marriage. We are both working on ourselves, trying to address the issues that brought us to this point, his addiction, and my affair among those issues, and then see if there is enough there to salvage.
The mirror I have held up to myself displays some very serious flaws, and I need to get healthy. However, he too has issues, and he is attending meetings for them and we are still seeing a MC. The door is not completely closed, but neither of us hold much hope of reconciliation. There is so much hurt to go around, and I am not sure there is enough good history in our relationship to overcome the pain we have caused each other.
My withdrawal is complete at this point. Thinking of the AP just reminds me of a person that I don't want to be. I want to put it past me, learn, and grow from it.
I wish you the best.