I know I feel like this because I am with a serial cheater. I am posting in R because it finally feels like R and all of my WH's actions have been proving that.
We both have found our love languages and are using that to help reconnect which has been wonderful. Just the fact that WH was open to this idea was a huge breakthrough for him.
I really do love my WH and I especially love what he has been doing for our M lately, BUT I always come back to this question, why am I doing this again? Why am I in R again? Is someone who has betrayed me and lied to me over and over again in the cruelest way deserving of second, third, fourth chances? I know most here would say no and here I am giving another chance.
R is so difficult and the part that makes it difficult for me is the constant 180ing of thoughts. I go from being on cloud nine and think my WH is just the bees knees to wanting to D
How long does the back and forth thinking go on for. When do you REALLY know you want to be in the M for good or is this thinking worse for me because I have a serial cheating WH?