Thank you for posting this topic. I am only 14 months out from DDay and feel the same way. The cycle is exhausting and sometimes I feel like getting a D just so the PTSD will stop.
My WH doesn't understand why I still feel this way, but he takes it and keeps putting in the work.
So sorry you feel this way after four years (((mattie)))
Just a quick question did you ever receive any IC therapy for just you? I know it helps me out with a lot of my processing.
Just read that you were in therapy before. So my question has been answered