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User Topic: Putting away Var & Gps
UndecidedinMA
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Default  Posted: 4:46 PM, April 26th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I know it is really early in the process for us but I can't live checking the rest of my life. I am not doing the Ostritch thing I know the percentages. I just want to get on with life.

He has been a rock for me these last 2 weeks. He actually drove 2 hrs to check on me on Marathon day. He left work to come say " I just needed to know you were okay"

I worked the marathon and when it all went to shit I was too busy to answer texts, phone calls or emails til later that night. He promptly drove back to work, I actually couldn't see him, just has a message relayed in to me.

So I think, just think maybe I will bestow a tiny bit of trust back. I am hoping that proves to be the right thing.


ME - BSO
Him - FWSO
OW - DBC Xwife
DDAY 09/14/11 ONS w/DBCxWOW with 4 mos EA
Solidly in R

Posts: 1005 | Registered: Oct 2011 | From: MA
RockyMtn
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Default  Posted: 10:50 PM, April 27th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Are you 1.5 years out? I don't think it is terribly early to put away the VAR and GPS. And it isn't like they will disappear. You can always bring them back.

What is the ostrich thing? I have no idea!

So sorry for what Boston experienced. It must've been really scary.


Me, BS, 30s
Him, WS, 30s, Steppenwolf
Kids: Yep
D-Day 1: September 2011, 6 week EA
D-Day 2: January 2013, discovered EA was a PA; there was another PA in 2010. All TT.
Goal = serenity.

Posts: 667 | Registered: Oct 2012
Safeguard
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Default  Posted: 12:22 AM, April 28th (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Good for you! Sounds like R is going great! Certainly inspiring for others trying to R. Relax and enjoy. You'll know if you need to reintroduce the Var and things. Enjoy your new relationship, you deserve it!


"since your actions don't match your words, excuse me while I stop believing you."

Posts: 143 | Registered: Apr 2013
Althea
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Default  Posted: 9:40 AM, April 28th (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I think for some of us, the life of checking up and monitoring is not something we can deal with; so we stop, accepting the risk that it may come back to bite us. I feel the same way. I'm glad you are safe, and hope you are both recovering from the trauma a few weeks ago. We are in Boston too, and it was a tough week to say the least.


Taking it one day at a time.

Posts: 454 | Registered: Dec 2012
authenticnow
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Default  Posted: 9:55 AM, April 28th (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

What is the ostrich thing? I have no idea!
I think she means that she's not going to bury her head in the sand, she's going to stay vigilant.

[This message edited by authenticnow at 10:17 AM, April 28th (Sunday)]


Take up your space (and do it well).

"That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt."


Posts: 37386 | Registered: Sep 2007
Undone1
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Default  Posted: 12:29 PM, April 28th (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

It's not my nature to check and I am maintaining vigilance. Once I started checking, I became obsessed with doing it, and it's just not healthy for me.

There are no guarantees here. If our spouses want to have an affair they will and the only thing we can do is love ourselves enough to let go of them!


Undone1
Married 10+ years to my high school sweetheart
DDAY 10/27/12
Me 55
WH 55
Blended Family: 25, 21, and 20
Married 10 years
"The Universe Unfolds as it Should"

Posts: 301 | Registered: Dec 2012 | From: Missouri
sri624
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Default  Posted: 2:14 AM, April 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

when i thought i had access....i checked all the time...i didnt find anything. the reason was becasue he didnt want me to find it. he had a secret email account that told me that told me the dirty truth.

my lesson here was that, yes full transparency is important....and it a requirement for me to remain attempting r, however, there are no guarantees...me having access...or getting a var, gps...means nothing if he really wants to cheat. you know what i mean? they can always find a way to cheat.


BS (41):(Former Doormat)
WS (39):(Busted Cheater)
Married: 10 years, 3 kids under 5
DD1: 10/11 PA/EA with pilates instructor/former stripper.
DD2: 10/12 False r, cheating with other women, online dating,Substance abuse issues.
Attempting R in bi

Posts: 934 | Registered: Nov 2011 | From: Alabama
PointMan
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Default  Posted: 10:19 AM, April 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Turning off the keylogger and the constant snooping has been a positive thing for me. I was triggering every day by checking those things. It was not something that was helping ME heal.
I also figured that if she is going to cheat shes going to find a way to go underground with it.
It was unhealthy for me to continue the obsessing about it.


DDay: 1/16/13
ME: 49
WW: 43
2 boys: 9 and 13
Trying to R.
Married 15 years.
"keeping the faith"

Posts: 77 | Registered: Feb 2013 | From: NE
karmahappens
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Default  Posted: 11:00 AM, April 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Hey Undecided.

You don't have to justify the steps you take. You do what's best for you at any given moment...

I think when you stop checking there is a bit of fear. The things we put in place make us feel safer to see the truth. Going forward you need to start trusting you again. You need to know the crazy voices and doubts are calm and you can go back to trusting your gut. It is frightening...

Your H has been proving himself to you and you know it's time. Put the safety net aside and take the first step. After a while it feels good to be walking on your own again...

((((hugs)))) and continued healing.


“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom”
Anaïs Nin
Me: 45
Him: 47
Dday 8/2007
We have R'd

Posts: 3793 | Registered: Jun 2012 | From: Massachusetts
tryin2havefaith
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Default  Posted: 3:51 PM, April 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I put away VAR, the GPS is on both our phones. I have full access to all accounts including cell account. The key logger is still on computer but hasn't alerted me in over 2 years (he doesn't know it's there). I finally had to let go and trust. Otherwise I was never going to be all in in this. I became obsessed in early days and that stalled our healing. But the more he was where he said he was, the longer NC was absolutely maintained, I started to feel safer and safer. He knows that if it were to happen again....it's a deal breaker.

Right now he is doing the difficult, dirty, and demanding job of looking very intensely at himself and how he slipped over that slope and crossed boundaries he never thought he would do, or could do. He is 200% committed to my healing.


ME- BS
HIM- WS
DDay 1/2011
4 - 6 months of TT'ing
Fully R'd
"Just as ripples spread out when a single pebble is dropped into water, the actions of individuals can have far-reaching effects. " -Dalai Lama

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