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User Topic: Three Month Check In
NGFinishLast
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Default  Posted: 10:09 PM, April 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

It really feels like it's been more than three months. I feel like I'm back to my old self again. Back in March, my routine physical came back with a cancer scare. Nothing puts things into perspective like the fear of death. By the end of that week, I felt like the fog had been lifted.

Initially I was afraid that it was only temporary. Maybe it was just another emotional high point that would only be followed by a crash. Well, it's been a month and I still feel the same. I stopped engaging her in any communication that didn't pertain to our daughter. I started hitting the gym and lost 10 lbs. I finally decorated my "new" apartment so that it no longer looks like I'm squatting. I joined a kickball league and started going out to social events.

WW has noticed. Like a child, I find her trying to get my attention. She texts me to let me know she's out drinking (Prior to D-Day she was strongly against it). She went to NY which was one of my no-nos on "the list" since one of the OM lives there. She texted me pictures while she was there. And the last two times I've seen her, she's given me long awkward hugs and paused like she was waiting for a kiss. After one, she started tearing up. I pretended not to notice.

I'm not "over" everything. I still get upset from time to time when I think about how our marriage ended. I deserved better. She was selfish and she split up our family, which was something we both said we'd never do because our own childhoods. Now that the fog is over I recognize just how lopsided our marriage was, and how I was willing to stay in that forever. I look forward to starting over and I feel like, if anything, now I know what to watch out for the next go round.


D-Day: January 2013
Me, BH: 31
Her, WW: 31
Married 10 years
Kids: Daughter, 3
Divorced: Sep 2013

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wonderpets
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Default  Posted: 3:02 AM, April 30th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Good to hear. Gets easier every day.

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Default  Posted: 5:56 AM, April 30th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thank you for your post NGFL. Can't tell you how uplifting it is to read of someone who recognized how important self-image/esteem was during this painful time. Your WW recognizes your new strength and independence and finds it attractive.

Just keep maintaining this progress of pulling away from your selfish WW. There is a brighter future out there and you have the determination to throw off the shackles of a marriage gone bad and reach for something better.


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lost100
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Default  Posted: 6:53 AM, April 30th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

You are young and have so much life ahead of you, spread your wings and fly.. you will find happiness again if only I was in my 30's would be gone far far away...

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HURTAGAIN1981
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Default  Posted: 8:28 AM, April 30th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I found your post truly inspirational to read. I am glad that you have been able to pick yourself up and realise what the marriage was.

Posts: 296 | Registered: Mar 2012
keptmypromise
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Default  Posted: 8:53 AM, April 30th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Good for you. I alsoreflect on my marriage, and thinking back feel my marriage has also been lopsided. When you connect the dots, the pain of Seperation/divorce does not seem so bitter, and what you are leaving behind does not seems to be as much a loss. Stay focused on you and the kids, and good luck.


Me - BH 54 years
Her - WS 46 years
DD - 6/13/11 (2 total that i know of)
DD - 14
DD - 11
In R...The long and Winding Road

Posts: 254 | Registered: Jul 2012 | From: Ohio
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