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User Topic: Is this now real R
sadminnie
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Default  Posted: 1:33 AM, April 30th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Last night we had a talk at my WS request, basically R has been hard and we seemed to be going round in circles, seems like we were just on auto pilot . We both agreed we couldn't carry on like this so we talked about what we could do to make it better. For me it was for him to show more support and love and make effort. He agreed he was just coasting along and said he will. He also said something that shocked me. He said that for the past few years when he has come home from work or whatever and he went to give me a hug or kiss I'd tell him not now in busy, and I never realised I did this and he said the rejection felt bad that in the end he just gave up making the effort. To think that I rejected something that today I long for makes me feel so bad and that is one of the reasons he prob went elsewhere to feel loved and wanted. It's no excuse I know but I never realised this till last night . I need to be more loving. He says he wants us to work and to be together more than anything and hopefully now we have had this second heart tot heart we might get somewhere. We have both realised you can't just see what happens we need to help make it happen. He told me all about the OW and even though it kills me to say she sounds nice. She had no idea about me and by sounds of it when she did and it ended she was heartbroken. I have told him nc and he says he hasn't since he paid her back the money he owed her and that was just to put It in her bank and for her to text back thanks. Now my question is for all you wise people on here, does this sound like true R now, does it sound positive and if anyone knows of any advice I might need going forward with this I would be very great full


WS 33
BS 31
Together 12 years
1 8 yr old daughter
Day 20/3/13
Second disclosure 29/4/13

Posts: 54 | Registered: Apr 2013 | From: nottingham england
silverhopes
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Default  Posted: 2:25 AM, April 30th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

It's good that you guys had a heart to heart...

To think that I rejected something that today I long for makes me feel so bad and that is one of the reasons he prob went elsewhere to feel loved and wanted.

This thinking worries me. What stopped him from telling you he felt this way before he went out and had an affair? He needs to question this about himself. Why did he tell himself "no" when it came to expressing his feelings to you, but "yes" to entering in an affair with someone else? Surely he cannot expect you to be a mindreader.

It is a good thing that he was able to say how he felt and that he would like more affection with you. At the same time, can he acknowledge or understand what was making you busy those other times? Was it work, dealing with kids, doing things around the house, (ETA: read your profile) wedding preparations since you two were engaged? Perhaps you had a reason you were busy as well. It sounds like it really helps that you guys are talking. But please don't blame your marriage issues for his decision to have an affair. He had other choices.

He told me all about the OW and even though it kills me to say she sounds nice.

It's good that he told you about the OW, hopefully answering all your questions. Is he still carrying fond memories of her though? In that case, it sounds like he needs to be more proactive, instead of coasting along, to see the A for what it really was. The OW might not have known he was married - so there's that - but he did. Why does he carry positive memories of his betrayal to you? Hopefully in time, he won't.

I hope he can look back at his marriage history and appreciate all the things you WERE and WERE DOING that made your marriage special. Pre-A. The things that maybe he didn't appreciate before that were always there.

Hope you all will keep talking. Sounds like healing.

[This message edited by silverhopes at 2:28 AM, April 30th (Tuesday)]


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