How do you give up on having expectations? I'm a people pleaser and am just sick and tired of always ending up disappointed. No one outside of my family is ever there for me when I need it. I'm there to pull my friends up through thick and thin, but when I need anything not a peep. Thank God I do have my family. But it hurts.
I know I am co-dependent and I am working on it. But I'm starting to fear now that I am going the other way. Now I am starting to get to the point where I don't care about anyone, but that doesn't make me feel good either. I just feel like I am always, always disappointed in people. I keep saying I need to expand my social circle and make new friends. Maybe it will help. I am trying to do that, but at the same time I'm being honest with myself. It isn't just my current circle of friends that is like this. It has been this way my whole life. I feel used a lot of the time and it literally makes me sick to my stomach. I'm just starting to get to the point where I don't care. I don't want to do anything for anyone. I don't want anyone bothering me with their issues. I don't want them around at all. I now this isn't good.
Has anyone been in a similar position? How did you find that balance? The balance between good friend and not allowing yourself to become the punching bag?
Sorry if this is jumbled. I am exhausted. It has been a crazy week and once again, no one to really decompress with. I just needed to get this all out. I will check back in tomorrow.
Above all, be the heroine, not the victim. - Nora Ephron
It is our choices...that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.
- J. K. Rowling
It's not just old age I've been this way for a long time. It's much better this way.
How do you stop being a doormat? Just stop. It's very simple, and don't say it's not.
I define a successful relationship as one that goes both ways. You have to protect yourself And...yes...part of my NB's was finding new friends. Over the past 2 years I have made 4 very good girlfriends that have my back as much as I have theirs.
"For whatever we lose, like a you or a me, it's always ourselves we find in the sea" ee cummings
I'm there to pull my friends up through thick and thin, but when I need anything not a peep.
After my divorce I realized that I had a lot of friends that were taking advantage of me. I had to instill some strong boundaries in order to put myself first. I no longer would drop everything to help them out, my time was just as important as theirs. If they needed me they would have to make plans ahead of time. I also stopped giving so much to the friends that never seemed to reciprocate.
When I started to put up these boundaries I ended up losing some friends because they realized they could no longer take advantage of me. But that just means they weren't really my friends to begin with.
Now I only have a small handful of friends.
I'm just starting to get to the point where I don't care. I don't want to do anything for anyone. I don't want anyone bothering me with their issues. I don't want them around at all. I now this isn't good.
I struggle with this at times as well. I think it may be in part because I hate asking people for help and so rarely do. Because of this over the years I have learned how to solve my own problems and decompress on my own. And part of me thinks that they should learn this skill as well.
I think there is a fine line between having good boundaries and being a friend. For me, that means that I will no longer make last minute plans (typically when I get those "wanna grab dinner" texts the day of, it's because they are having issues) if one of my friends wants to get together they need to make plans at least a day ahead of time. That way I feel like I'm being taken into consideration and not just used as a punching bag.