And had my L file my case with the Court Administrator! I now have a date for ENE.
I recieved paper work back in Oct and have had only one question from his L since then. We were doing informal discovery and it took him over 3 months to get his financial paperwork to me. Supposedly his L is working on a settlement proposal. I'm done waiting!
We've done in house seperation since last July. It is HELL. I've had the chance to stay with a friend for a few weeks. It has been such a stress reliever to not be in the house with "opposing". I don't see myself ever living in the house again.
In all these months I've been NC and it's taken me this long to get up the courage to finally file. I realized last night that I already lost everything that was important to me. My marriage is over, my home is no longer my home. My kids have all moved out of state (we all get along fine they needed to be away from the situtation). I've been so afraid of the what ifs...I still don't know how this will play out I just know that I can't keep living like this.
I've been very calm and since I've been out of the house right now I'm not fearful of what he'll do to me. I'm not sure how I'll feel when I have to attend court and see him. I'm ready to have this done and over. I've been stuck in limbo waiting for him to do something! I'm ready to take some control and get this mess sorted out so I can move on to my NB! Wish me luck.