Today is the first time that my FWH has had to travel away for business with OW since D-Day 2 and subsequent R. I have been getting in a state about this in anticipation. They are away (with others) for 2 days this week and then back for 2 days and then away for 3 days again next week. In the midst of all this, my aunt has just come home from hospital early and I will now be staying away with her in the intervening days, as her only available carer before other family can take over.
This should be major trigger territory, but I'm doing fine. After a really stressful time at the weekend with me ranting and raving, FWH calmed me down. He has explained to me what he will be doing to keep me safe whilst he is away. They have travelled on different flights. They have to stay in the same hotel as the venue is booked by the client. There is a big buffet dinner tonight which they both have to attend as it is client facing. He will not talk to her about anything except for work related matters, but even then will attempt to go through others. When conversation with anyone turns to non work matters, he will talk about me, how happy we are, what we do together etc. he has been ringing and messaging me all day. He won't drink tonight and he will go to bed alone early before everyone else. And will call and text me through the night. Tomorrow at the meeting, he will have no non work chat with her and they will travel back separately. (last year the taxi collected them and she was sitting in the cab in our driveway!!)
I don't like that he is away with her but I know he won't do anything with her or anyone else. I think she will find the whole situation very awkward ( good). I have asked him to think of me all the time and when he sees her to remember what pain and hurt the two of them have caused both of us.
I feel calm and trusting. I hope I can keep this up for the next week.