H teaches a class on Tuesday nights(not a big deal not a lecture type thing). Well, he canclled it again last night and texted me saying it was because he wanted to hang out with us. My first thought is bullshit he just doesn't want to do it(it's reviewing advertising work).
I texted him back that we were at activity which happens to be a block from his office. He comes in about fifteen minutes before dd was finished. Son was playing around, and he says he's going shopping across the street. Annoying.
We come home. Everyone tired. It's the last week of school, and I get food out for him while making kids' dinner. He says he doesn't want it because he had beef at lunch. I said you could've told me that before i put it in the oven for you.
I had what felt like the beginning of a migraine. I crawled in bed after cleaning up, and he watched the electrical storm with the kids for a few minutes.
He's leaving for NYC today(home for him parents in the burbs), and he desperately wants to move there. I have no interest in moving, and neither do the kids. So, I guess this has me a bit on edge.
This morning he lets me oversleep(I forgot to set my alarm) and I woke 15 minutes before I'm suppose to leave with kids for school. H rushing to get ready to ride with us, and we let him out close to his office on our way to school.
I still have a headache and not really in a good mood, and he said something about flying out and storms, and I asked when he was leaving he said around such and such, and I said you haven't sent me your itinerary. His response was "now you're in the know" with a smartass tone.
I said I can do without the attitude. He said well I hate dealing with you when you're like this. I had a headache and had said maybe five words since waking up.
I don't know if it's the anticipation of this trip, the fact that his intentions on moving are all about "his dreams" and wants and wishes and he tells people it's because the grandparents and family are there. Yea, HIS parents and family, and I hate his mother. He knows she is a problem.
I'm just so sick of it all. I prefer when he isn't around. Sadly, the kids don't miss him when he's not around because he works so much. I think the only thing he cares about is his image. He doesn't care about us. He told MC he was 100% into making this relationship work.
I think he just wants it to work 100% the way he wants it to work so he is perceived the way he thinks of himself and he clearly thinks highly of himself.
When the mc asked him about the affair I think it was like a brick to the head. He has never called it an affair or anything close just a bad decision.
Sorry, I'm venting and pissed and trapped. And to think the mc makes a remark about me being depressed. Who wouldn't be fucking depressed?