Ooh, this is good, I was going to post something like it!
I'm sorry for all of your anger-all of you-and all the awful things happening to us, much of it at the hands of other people.
I'm pissed because he is being such an ass about this visitation crap. He's making all these changes, going back on promises to DD and trying to make them up to her and use pretty language to disguise what's really happening. He's mad because I won't do that, so he apparently contacted his L and said some shitty crap about telling my L he needs to control me so I am more cooperative? WFT? This has me red in the face mad and that pit in the bottom of my belly is hot.
I've bent over backwards to be kind to this man, even after all I know, but I think...I think my heart just went completely black and he died for me today as a person. Before he was just a ghost/invisible handyman/someone in my phone, but this feels soooo hurtful.
I'm pissed that I gave time on mother's day away from DD so he could keep a promise and he treats me this way.
I'm pissed that I gave time on "my weekend" coming up so he could keep a promise to take her to an event. This is what I get in return?
I'm pissed that he feels free to interpret the rules instead of actually do them and then takes revenge on me for trying to do things right.
I'm pissed that we try to do the right thing in life and people who should care and matter the most treat others like hell.
I'm pissed that I was so stupid and earlier in life did not fight for higher education and the ability to financially support myself.
Yes, as sleepy says, I'm pissed.
I'm pissed that I'm pregnant and aching and witnessing DD's pain while he is off living his unemployed fantasy with OW who is probably supporting him physically and monetarily while we are very, very alone.
I am pissed that he actually said aloud he would want her to live with him and basically said to my face FU, even after all the other stuff he did. Acres of it.
I am pissed that he thinks someone like OW is a "better person" because she has such low standards and esteem.
I'm pissed that my immediate family and his knew about the A and OW but no one told me...and some even lied.
I'm pissed at so many, many things.
I'm pissed that my fate ended up this way and all I've done is everything I could "the right way" and "the high road".
I'm pissed there is such cruelty in the world.
I'm pissed that there are people who will fool around with married people and then help them break up their marriage.
I'm pissed that marriage is not taken more seriously.
I'm pissed for the emotional setback it feels like this caused me. It feels like just when I get going again, that man manages to shake me and take me down.
I guess I should end and go find something to punch.
Thank you for this ranting page, now I feel the tears that usually follow the anger spells. Maybe it will be out now and I can go on to the next thing.Ashland 13
The only thing that stays the same, is change. -M. Etheridge