Return to Forum List

Return to Divorce/Separation® > Divorce/Separation

You are not logged in. Login here or register.

Fear vs. reality

Pages: 1 · 2 · 3 · 4 · 5 · 6 · 7 · 8 · 9

Gr8Lady posted 10/14/2013 01:42 AM

Good for YOU.

There really are blessings in disguise. Having no children, means you won't be tied to spouse for child issues. A huge plus.

So a big whoo hoo to you.

phmh posted 10/18/2013 18:25 PM

bumping up

Abbondad posted 10/18/2013 19:56 PM

In a rush and don't have time to add my two cents, but this is an essential thread, for it cuts to the core of all our tsurus. Keep it going! I read it for inspiration. It's all about fear....

ladies_first posted 10/22/2013 14:53 PM


fraeuken posted 10/22/2013 19:22 PM

So many of the fears listed here - financial anxiety, losing friends and family, not finding love again, lack of sex - were my fears too. Those fears were so debilitating that I could not get out of bed, could not eat, could not kick my ex to the curb and tried to hang on to somebody who treated my like garbage.

And as most of those who posted, I found those fears not to be realistic and my life is now turning out better than it ever was.

I am doing better financially than I ever did, being able to save more while allowing myself a decent lifestyle. Instead of money being spent on husband's toys and pricey dinners and 100$ bottle wines, I get my regular massages, have a cleaning lady, a gardener and still have more money left over than before.

I am closer to ALL of family and most friends than ever before. My ex-in laws and my parents are my rocks. So are my close girlfriends and a few guy friends. I have found kindness and love in places I never expected.

I have dated and had a relationship after my separation and divorce. Even though the relationship did not end well I learned that I could love again and truly fall for somebody again head over heels. It also showed me how great sex can truly be and it has given me hope for the future that at my tender age of 44 it is not too late to find love.

This is a great thread for anybody just starting this journey. It is so hard to imagine that you can come out better, stronger, happier on the other side, but many of us here are living proof of that.

Frankly, if I was asked today to trade my life and my experiences since my separation and divorce and go back to my old life - ex-husband and marriage at that point, money issues etc. - I would say 'No' without hesitation.

[This message edited by fraeuken at 7:24 PM, October 22nd (Tuesday)]

phmh posted 11/3/2013 09:57 AM

Bumping up, as I said I would in General.

IrishLass518 posted 11/3/2013 22:19 PM

I have to say I had all of these same fears and the fear that xWH would never come back.
Reality is: I have a great family support system. I have awesome friends. I recently got a wonderful job that I love. I am having fun with my life. I took my boy to Disneyland and it was fantastic. I have new dreams and aspirations that I know I am capable of achieving on my own. I bought anew car. I have not just survived I continue to thrive. I chose to be happy.

fraeuken posted 11/3/2013 23:52 PM

Beautiful thread. I keep thinking about it when I struggle and I ask myself if my struggle/fear is rooted in reality.

Most time it is based in fear - fear of not ever being loved again, not being good enough, not being strong enough. And then I kick myself remembering all the posts of the strong people on this site - if you can do it, I can do it.

msk99 posted 11/4/2013 11:51 AM

Great thread, very timely in my situation. Trying to garner the strength to forge ahead and get this disaster in my rear view mirrors....

ItHappened2Me2 posted 11/6/2013 14:29 PM

Thank you for this topic! I haven't started the D process yet -- but will be shortly and this thread gives me hope!

I think my biggest fear is the possibility of sharing important milestones in my children's lives with OW (like Homecoming Dances, Prom, Graduations, Wedding). My daughter has already told me that there is no way OW will ever replace me as "Mom" -- but I don't want to share my kids with her.

(actually, what my daughter has said is that she only has 2 moms -- her birthmom and me and there isn't room for another one!)

We'll see what reality ends up being.

sleepless34 posted 11/6/2013 17:44 PM

Love this post. This is so helpful.

Because my situation is still so fears are about what I don't know about STBX and what he may do next...

Fear: Why did this man I thought loved me, who was a good person, turn into someone else?

Reality: I am thankful I found out his true colors now and not in 10 more years.I am thankful I am not with him because he is in a dark dark hole I don't want to be dragged into. He tried to be a good man, but he isn't one, he is pathetic.

Fear: What is he plotting, scheming, planning legally?? Can he beat me? will he get 50% custody?

Reality: I am smarter. I am more resourceful and willful and stronger. I will not back down and while he had a 15 month head start on me...I am only getting stronger while he gets weaker and I can play this game too. Don't F**K with me.

careerlady posted 11/6/2013 17:52 PM

This should be a sticky just like there are R success stories stickied on the R thread! I am just at the beginning of this process and these posts are encouraging. Maybe I'll post my fears too

Fear: it will be hard for me to give my 16 month old son up for a whole day or 2 at a time and it will be hard for him to go back and forth. Also STBX is unreliable so he may not keep to our agreements. Conversely, maybe I won't have much help with child rearing and the nanny will have to cover my hours (right now STBX is traveling most of the week). My parents said they will visit once a month to help.

Fear: My STBX will see the light and stop being a verbally abusive cheater and I'll miss out on the improved version (yeah right he's still blaming everyone else for this)

Fear: I'll be lonely because I moved up here for STBX's career and now I'm stuck hundreds of miles away from my family and friends without him. Already started making some good friends up here so hopefully that's not true.

Fear: I'll never find a good man.

Fear: I will struggle financially. Even though I was the breadwinner I worry about paying for the house on my own, paying for childcare on my own, and him winning alimony.

I think that's it. Seems like a lot of fears for someone who can't wait to be free!

[This message edited by careerlady at 5:54 PM, November 6th (Wednesday)]

phmh posted 11/14/2013 18:50 PM

Bumping this up since I've seen some new faces in here lately.

Believe us -- things will get better! Don't let fear stop you from making the best decision for you for the rest of your life!

phmh posted 11/25/2013 18:00 PM

Bumping again.

ladies_first posted 1/14/2014 16:30 PM


yestopants posted 1/14/2014 21:33 PM

WOW! You guys that have shared are so completely amazing! You are an inspiration to us who are just starting this mess. I have a lot of fears…. I read through this whole thread and bump, bump, bump. thank you for the encouragements this club is awesome. Being here makes me know I will thrive. I've feared so much….but the reality is starting to show….and i know that very soon my list of fear vs. reality will clearly show that my worst nightmare is actually the best thing that could have happened, Thanks for keeping this going and thanks for sharing, it means a lot to a newbie

WeepingBuddhist posted 1/15/2014 08:10 AM

This is great. Thank you!!! to everyone who contributed; you make this process sooo much better.

FEAR: I'll never be able to afford to go on vacation again.

REALITY: My buddy sent me a plane ticket and rented a beach house and I'm taking off in a month just in time to come back and FINALIZE.

GingerAle posted 1/15/2014 10:10 AM

pmhm, Thank you so much for creating this thread. And thanks to everyone who has contributed to it and bumping it. It is so inspiring, and just what I needed today!

hangingonin posted 1/15/2014 11:00 AM

This is really helpful to me as I'm feeling quite low at the moment. Thanks

phmh posted 1/19/2014 17:43 PM

Bumping again, for the weekend crowd.

Honestly, it's getting so long since D-Day for me that I have trouble remembering some of my other fears (I posted some here, but I know I had more) and life just keeps getting better and better.

I know it's so hard early in the process. You can't see how you can ever be happy again, but you will. You are all very strong (stronger than you even realize) and can come through this happier than before.

There will be tough times ahead, and a terrible roller coaster, but someday you will wake up and wonder why you ever were with someone like that.

It gets better. Just keep telling yourself that. I promise it's true.

(((everyone who needs to be here)))

BrokenDaisy posted 1/20/2014 06:01 AM

I can relate to so many of the fears and realities in here! I wanted to add one that hasn't been posted yet: Dealing with illness as a single parent.

Fear: with no help whatsoever (I moved far away to a place where I know basically no one to help me out) there is no way I will be able to take care of my son if he falls Ill or if I do.

Reality: soon after I moved my son got an awful stomach bug. As in truly horrible. He was puking for days and although it obviously wasn't fun, I managed to take care of everything by myself. All the cleaning (toddlers don't understand using a bucket or toilet yet....), the doctor visits, the care taking, the medicine giving, the staying up to monitor fever and heartbeat, the worrying, the loving, the hugs, keeping fluids in him (luckily still breastfed!) you name it. I had almost no sleep but I did it. And I dis it well. Finally he was getting better and being his happy self. I remember feeling so happy for conquering this huge fear. He was barely back on his feet when I inevitably got sick. Boy was it an awful bug!! Again no help so inbetween camping out at the toilet I still managed to clean, prepare meals, look after him. I didn't do it all perfectly and I was crying a lot! (I hate being sick) but we made it through it. Both of us. Stronger and closer for the experience. I felt strength because something I thought I'd never ever be able to juggle on my own - I did! We are capable of so much more than we believe.

Pages: 1 · 2 · 3 · 4 · 5 · 6 · 7 · 8 · 9

Return to Forum List

Return to Divorce/Separation

© 2002-2015 ®. All Rights Reserved.