MrWNW was EXTREMELY offended, hurt, and angry with me several months ago when I, as a 2001 rape victim and he as someone that helped me through very dark times of the PTSD from that, said,
"I would've rather been raped 1,000 times than have lived through one December 2010!!!"
I recently talked to my IC (the same IC I had for my rape counseling) about that statement, and I still hold true to that statement.
I didn't love my rapist, didn't trust my rapist. My rapist never committed to me, made promises to me, let me dream a lifetime with him.
December 2010 crashed so much of my life, and it's never been the same....I've never been the same.... The PTSD is far worse that I'm dealing with now from his SA than the PTSD that was related to the rape.