It has only been a few weeks since Dday. I'm not really sure where to begin here in the forums. I have gotten started in the Healing Library, I have read Getting the Love You Want and am two thirds of the way through Not Just Friends.
Directly, I am trying to give my spouse the space he needs and be patient.
We had agreed mutually to file for a separation. We filled in the initial paperwork together. I have since asked him to reconsider our marriage.
I have had NC with OM and am trying my best.
Thank you everyone for all of your posts here on SI- I have been lurking for a few days now here in the forums.
I suppose my first question is how did you come to terms with what you've done? I have no regrets of ending the A with OP and do not miss them. But I am in a "fog" as to how the heck did I let this happen? How did I betray the one person who I love so much?
I still can't believe it myself.
[This message edited by Regrettful at 9:55 AM, June 10th (Monday)]
I completely get it. I feel like such a (something) right now.
I have not looked into IC yet. My spouse strongly suggested that I needed it. I am waiting until I start working so that I can foot the bill (in a couple of weeks hopefully).
-sigh- I wish I could just undo all of this and realize from the start what I was actually throwing away and how much hurt I was inflicting on both of us.
I hope you can find some or all of the help you need here.