I have been working on my own FOO patterns, codependency, loving myself, reconnecting with my emotions, developing stronger more intimate frienships, writing and keeping busy. But I still have some rough days like today where I feel like I am drifting away from her, or that she is drifting away from me because of the separation. But, I guess I have to trust that things will work out. I want to make it work for her, but I guess I am impatient with this fog she is in, or worrying that she will never come out of it.
Thanks for listening!
[This message edited by powerthroughpain at 3:09 PM, June 12th (Wednesday)]
I am listening and you are doing amazing!
I hear you on the having "patience" part, who knew it was humanly possible to have so much waiting for a wayward to come out of the "fog"?! I don't think you are being impatient at all, it's just so so frustrating isn't it? To me it would be obvious that she was risking your marriage by meeting up with him to go to the beach. At least she admits to being "screwed up in the head", yeah, that's an understatement isn't it?!
I agree that going about your own business of healing is extremely difficult in itself, without the stress and burden of wondering what she is going to do. It feels like a fight for you life doesn't it? It takes so much focus to take care of yourself and let go of what you can't change/fix.
I admire your strength, you name says it all "power through the pain"!
Wishing you inner peace as you continue on in your journey.
So today I am recommitting myself to my half of the marriage with the hope that she will return to me, and when she does Ill be ready. I have nothing to lose because I already lost everything. I don't plan on being with anyone else for a long time, so it doesnt really matter. Ill keep focusing on myself and keep the hope alive inside my heart.