after feeling relatively positive about the progress WH and i have been making, i feel like i am talking a nose dive into the obsessive thoughts about ow.
super long story short....a neighbor has caught the OW watching my WH on several occasions. (OW lives right down the street from us) The neighbor brought it to my attention....so i started watching...and i too have caught OW hovering about and watching my WH.
There has been total NC...she hasn't tried to contact him...but i am still deeply bothered. I feel like i am digressing backwards. Mind movies are running rampant again. i think about the A a lot more now. i feel like i was making such personal progress...and now i feel like its 12 steps back.
I have talked to my WH about it. He has been very supportive. He never looks her way. he never drives by her house. if he sees her outside he stops what he's doing, comes in and tells me immediately. I watch him when he doesn't know i am watching...to make sure he is abiding by our boundary agreement....he has given me no cause to worry about his actions.
I'm just having this huge range of emotions. I'm pissed that she is doing it. Its lame, really....i mean, how pathetic is she, peeping thru the bushes to catch a glimpse??? I am mad at myself for letting it bother me. But more so, i am worried about the affect it is having on me and my mindset to work towards R. I know i need to focus on ME and WH...leave her out of the equation....but jeez.
ugh. just ugh.
rant over. thanks for listening.