Someone who genuinely loves you does not deliberately hurt you.
You seem to be doing all the right things, seeking IC and staying away from him. I know the heartbreak of losing your best friend is a double whammy...but he has not treated you like a friend and has added further humiliation by not coming clean. The whole thing about "not knowing" his feelings means he used you until he knew for sure he wanted to move on.
The woman coming up to you in public and sharing that horrible information might have been good in that you found out, but what a horrible person she is...
I am so glad you are seeking counseling, you deserve better and need to continue building your life...
But I know the heartache can feel overwhelming and you are right about the roller coaster. Just remember that you loved him and did the right things in your relationship.
Yesterday I was sad. Today I'm just pissed.
SO sends an email out of the blue, the first contact with me, and says "I hope all is well".
WTH He thinks all is well in my life after the recent events?? He's got to be kidding.
I did not respond to the email.
You are the real deal.
So proud of you as I read your post. You handled your self extremely well. WOW.
I too am sorry this has happened to you but please be assured that SI is a great place to find yourself. When in doubt, come here. Someone will always understand and care.
Unfortunately we have all been on the rollercoaster ride from hell. It sucks.
You are in shock and you are mourning the loss of your SO. He is not the same man. He is in a fog.
Please look in The Healing Library and read, read, read. Knowledge is power.
With or without him, you will recover and you will be okay.
Yes, it does take time, but you will emerge from this a healthier, stronger more aware person.
He is cakewalking. Wants his cake and eat it too.
Don't be an option. You deserve truth, honesty and love.
[This message edited by 1Faith at 3:53 PM, June 17th (Monday)]