I can feel your broken heart! I know that ache. We all do.
I can't express how sorry I am you are going through this, but I can tell you, it will get better.
It is so hard to find your happiness again, but you can. It's out there. You just don't know what it looks like yet.
Finding a good therapist is a strong step forward to healing. Sometimes, just the act of reaching out for help empowers you.
You began that road when you posted here. You can't just "get over it". You gotta work through it. This is a very safe and compassionate place to be as you work through it all.
Your WH's decision to cheat has nothing to do with you. There is no excuse for infidelity.
It is not about what you husband was getting; it is about what he wasn't giving.
When I first decided to take back control of my own happiness after DDay, I used this mantra: Hold your head up, be strong, you did nothing wrong!
Writing here is very cathartic. Sometimes just typing your thoughts helps you process the mess. It can bring a little clarity to a completely unclear and unbelievable situation.
Plus, this place is just full of very kind and caring people that totally get it!
Please remember to take care of you. This kind of pain takes a wicked toll on the body and soul.
Keep moving. We are rooting for you.