I've never felt this much hurt in my whole life. I can't stop throwing up. I can't even drink a glass of milk without throwing up.
I'm all over the place. One minute I wana try with her and the next minute I'm screaming and throwing whatever is closest to me. I feel like I can't handle all of this. I'm like a zombie..
Oh (((sadgirl9357))) Reading this broke my heart. I feel your pain in your words.
You already know this isn't about you or anything lacking in your marriage. Your WW's A is all about her brokenness.
If she is truly a sex addict she needs professional help. You have to realize one A does not a sex addict make. So if she honestly believes this about herself, then the "shit sandwich" is probably a LOT bigger then you currently realize.
She is going to have to work very hard to undo all her unhealthy "coping" mechanisms she has developed over her life time. She will not be able to change overnight. If she could change in a day, the A would never have happened.
Normally one would hope that the WS would be healthy enough to help the BS with their healing process, but she may not be much support for you if she has an intimacy disorder.
Please read up on the 180 in the Healing Library and consider using it to protect yourself while you heal you and your wife works on herself.
Post here often if you need to. Also, there is a thread for partners of sex addicts in the I Can Relate Forum. You should take a peek there.