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I've spent the past few days reading self help books. Trying to build my confidence and packing. I woke up today crying and I can't stop. Today we would have started our vacation. We were supposed to be gone for 4 days of adventures sun fun and laughter. I have no doubt that's how it would've been had I not found out about his infidelity. Sometimes I wish I didn't find out. I want to text him and tell him how much this hurts. But I won't and I can't. I've spent too many days learning to accept this and he may possibly be on this vacation with the OW. I can't give him the opportunity to mock or ignore my pain. He has truly 180'd me and I can only believe he doesn't care. I need to stay firm in my decision to not look back.

I say all of this with hot stinging tears running down my face and my heart in a perpetual ache.

((((Marley76)))

Sorry your are in pain today.

I am so sorry you are hurting today. I know on days I feel/felt that way I had 1 of 2 thoughts. 1. Complete hopelessness. 2. Screw that Ill show him. There are days I have to take a step back and Forget how I feel and Remember what I deserve. Moving through infidelity is not for the weak of heart for sure. No matter what choice you decide to make.

Marley

(((hugs)))

(((prayers)))

I am sorry you are in so much pain today. Deep breaths and crying is a great release for your hurt and sorrow. We all know your hurt.

If he is not being remorseful or trying to help you I think you are wise to stick to your guns even though it hurts like hell.

It is hard to realize that the one we loved can be so completely selfish and self serving. It's a horrid reality to find yourself in.

If you aren't getting what you want or need from being with someone, it's probably time to move on. You deserve truth and honesty.

Try to get out of the house for awhile. Take a walk, go to dinner. Keep moving.

You will make it through and you will be okay. I know it doesn't seem possible but I promise you will.

I'm so sorry, Marley.

Reading this:

I say all of this with hot stinging tears running down my face and my heart in a perpetual ache.

...made my heart ache for you too. Sending hugs and strength.

Take a deep breath.

It's hard not thinking about the shoulda beens, coulda beens. I have been there so many times. And I too, have wondered and sometimes wish I had never walked in, but I did.

I cried for 5 hours last wednesday, it had been a horrid week, and it continued till friday.

But yesterday, yesterday was alright, and today...today isn't too shabby too.

Try to seek support in your friends, go out and do something, even if you just go for a walk or sit in the park. It may seem hard, but I find sitting home and stewing all day long doesn't help. It's a fine line between grieving and going through the emotions, and laying down in a lump and giving up.

Don't give up.

Hugs to where ever you are.

((((Marley76))))

Thinking of you. Feel better.