Yesterday was my W d-day. She found out about A that happened about 2 years ago.
We have been together a little over 3 years. We got married on our 2 year anniversary. My A happened while we were still engaged.
Before we got married my W asked me if there was anything i needed to tell her before hand. I said no. I was so ashamed.
Back story: I have always been a cheater. I've created on every single person i was with. At those times i never felt anything. I didn't care That i was having multiple A's. I enjoyed the chase, I enjoyed the romance, but once sex came into the picture, I became uninterested and started building a new bridge.
I'm a lesbian and i have been through a lot of trauma in my mid childhood life. Physical, mental, emotional abuse because of my sexual orientation. I came out when i was In 9th grade after knowing my whole childhood i was gay. I'm now almost 30. Because of my lack of attention at home, I would hold onto anyone who would show me any kind of attention. Men and women.
I've been to therapy for my infidelity, not only for my infidelity issues but other issue going on in my life. It wasn't until after i had my A two years ago that i really started going to therapy regularly. It seemed tohelp although the guilt from my other infidelities haunted me on a daily basis. I shared this with my W and we battled through it together.
Since D-Day my W and i have come to an agreement of living arrangements. I will be staying at our home on the couch.
Our original plans were to move to Florida so i could attend school. My W now wants a divorce and to just b friends. She wants to move to Ireland for a year. She wants me to still go to school and pursue my career change and start celibate until she returns from Ireland.
I agreed to her terms because I don't want to lose her. I know what I did was wrong and I want to make our marriage work and last.
I discussed w my W that I wanted to attend more therapy. I would like to get help with my emOtional infidelities and also couples therapy.
She has little trust in me, which she has every right not to, and I'm struggling with ways to prove to her that she can trust me and I'm serious about our relationship. What can I do?
What kind of help can i get I'm the LGBT community for counseling geared toward my problem?
Someone please help?