I completely understand your sense of loss and unrest.
I also understand your desire to return to your roots. I've spent time visiting grandparents graves and the house I grew up in.
I have dreams a little bit like yours but money is not to be found right now and I, too, long for travel and for roots.
I'm really sorry .Ashland 13
The only thing that stays the same, is change. -M. Etheridge