I made the comment that I had so many feelings going 'round inside me that sometimes I felt like if I didn't get them out, I would die.
He said that he envied my ability to 'get them out', (express my feelings) and that his pain was twice as bad as mine. (I can actually see how that would be awful, too.)
So, I asked if he could just try to help me understand why he cannot express himself. He said it was fear of further disappointment, fear of having it thrown back at him in the future, and being criticized.
I asked if those fears outweighed the positive that could come out of expressing himself, and he said - without pause - Yes.
So there you have it. Or - there I have it. I guess you can't be any clearer than that.
I / we are not worth the work it would take.
A real boost to my already dead and rotting self esteem."Noone can make you feel inferior without your concent." Eleanor Roosevelt
I will not be vanquished. Rose Kennedy